WW wants to reconcile. I'm being pursued. - 04/26/18 09:19 PM
Here is my first post. My situation has change from I am a pursuer to being pursued.
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubb...202#Post2782202
After 12 months of calling, texting and PA, my WW decided to stop contacting with OM on her own. She told me she blocked his calls, texts and willing to change her number. However, I never asked what happen between them. Not yet.
We are still working at the shop together. I stay at condo on weekdays, stay home on weekends when my D comes back from boarding school. My W said she wants me to come back home but I told her I'm not ready. She always ask me to do things together like lunch ,dinner, shopping. Even ask me to plan some trips together w/o my D. Hurry to plan to build a new house together. She asks me to kiss her and hug her. I feel awkward every time my W talks sweet or touches me. The visuals of her doing things to OM came to my head every time she did those things. I try to avoid the quiet time alone with her because I'm not ready to talk about relationship with her.
She works so hard to make it up for me and hope that someday soon I will feel the same with her. Unfortunately, I don't think it can be the same. Ever. I can live with her and take care of her for the rest of my life but I don't think I will ever be able to love her like I want to again. Later? I don't know but not this soon for sure.
I told her that I'm glad that she finally discontinues relationship with OM. It is good for our D and our M. If this happen a little earlier I would be glad for myself too. However, the thin line that attach me and her is not there anymore. She shouldn't go see him again last time because I told her that if they sleep together again that would be it. But she said she didn't hear that I said. Now, It will be a long long time for me to come back the same or may be never. It might be sooner if OM is dead but that would be a crime. If she is willing to wait, I am here. If she gave up, I understand too. I don't need her love. I just want her to be a good mother to my child and be in a family.
I don't care if she calls or texts anyone no more. I don't worry where she go and with whom no more. I know there are sth wrong with me. I should change her number, check her phone, ask her where she went. But I don't feel like doing it. Not right now. I am so confuse.
Is anyone here has the same feeling as me?
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubb...202#Post2782202
After 12 months of calling, texting and PA, my WW decided to stop contacting with OM on her own. She told me she blocked his calls, texts and willing to change her number. However, I never asked what happen between them. Not yet.
We are still working at the shop together. I stay at condo on weekdays, stay home on weekends when my D comes back from boarding school. My W said she wants me to come back home but I told her I'm not ready. She always ask me to do things together like lunch ,dinner, shopping. Even ask me to plan some trips together w/o my D. Hurry to plan to build a new house together. She asks me to kiss her and hug her. I feel awkward every time my W talks sweet or touches me. The visuals of her doing things to OM came to my head every time she did those things. I try to avoid the quiet time alone with her because I'm not ready to talk about relationship with her.
She works so hard to make it up for me and hope that someday soon I will feel the same with her. Unfortunately, I don't think it can be the same. Ever. I can live with her and take care of her for the rest of my life but I don't think I will ever be able to love her like I want to again. Later? I don't know but not this soon for sure.
I told her that I'm glad that she finally discontinues relationship with OM. It is good for our D and our M. If this happen a little earlier I would be glad for myself too. However, the thin line that attach me and her is not there anymore. She shouldn't go see him again last time because I told her that if they sleep together again that would be it. But she said she didn't hear that I said. Now, It will be a long long time for me to come back the same or may be never. It might be sooner if OM is dead but that would be a crime. If she is willing to wait, I am here. If she gave up, I understand too. I don't need her love. I just want her to be a good mother to my child and be in a family.
I don't care if she calls or texts anyone no more. I don't worry where she go and with whom no more. I know there are sth wrong with me. I should change her number, check her phone, ask her where she went. But I don't feel like doing it. Not right now. I am so confuse.
Is anyone here has the same feeling as me?