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On November 11th of 2011 a very broken, very confused, very hurt, very depressed Crimson found his way onto this board after reading DR -- Crimson's First Post

Nearly one month later, the best friend that I have never met reached out and started to help pull me out of the pit I was in and out of my own head, grief and sorrow. She encouraged me to do something I hadn't done since the bomb date....look at Crimson...fix Crimson....and do it FOR Crimson...and if my wife wants onboard, great. She helped me learn that I can only control me, that I need to lose my scorecards ("because W has one of her own and I assure you you are not winning on it), to play the hand I was dealt, and to take care of myself.

25yearsmlc, I don't know you....I couldn't pick you out of a crowd or even if you were looking me dead in the face but I have told many people in my real life of how valuable you have been to me and how big of a part you have played in my evolution...in my becoming a better man, husband and father.

The love and concern you have had for me has been abundantly clear from your first post and you are the first to push me in the right direction, call me a jacka$$ when necessary or whack me with a 2x4 to get me to see straight. In no exaggerated terms, you may have saved my life, 25. At a bare minimum, from behind a keyboard you have inspired and encouraged me more than nearly anyone that has been in my circle since all of this began.

More importantly, you always have expressed hope for me and my sitch....though often balanced with reality. There have literally been times when one post from you has given that deep breath that I needed or that one word or sentence that provided me with legs to keep on moving forward....even through the darkest of moments including the actual day the divorce agreement was finalized.

I never could say "I love you" freely to anyone (friend or family) without feeling awkward or "bumpy" inside - that has changed since BD and my awakening. I can honestly say, 25, that I love you - even though I have never met you and I am grateful that you were directed into my life....it was the work of God....I am sure of it.

Congrats on 10,000 posts and all that you have done for me and others. I would not be here or the new person I am without you. I mean that.

Make sense?

Love,

Crimson

I'm glad you found what you needed brother. Cheers!
I think many of us would like to thank 25, as well!! smile
Just to clarify....I could have easily said the same about Gabbysmom and Sandi.....it took a village. And, to be honest, still does some days.

Crimson
That made me tear up! People amaze me with their generosity.
Labug, MrBond,AnotherStander have also been a blessing!!
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I can't say that I really blushed when I read your note. I teared up. Thank you.

I recall in my darkest times, wondering if other people's marital ;problems hurt as much as mine, and quickly realized they did.

And there must be a LOT of walking wounded in our midst. Which is amazing and sad. Amazing b/c somehow the world keeps turning despite our broken hearts.

But I have seen more growth in you, borne of courageous hard work, than in most. So to me, you are a success story of divorce busting, even though the marriage has not yet been saved.

I'd say YOU have been saved, and it was an honor of to be a part of that.

What I "know" about you is that there exists many women who'd be glad to be in your life. When you are ready, you'll let one in. I don't know if it'll be your ex w, but you won't be alone forever. You're too loving and too worthy of love for women not to notice. (Heck, you're one popular guy around here!)

Hope we meet in person some day, and I hope you have lots of kids in your life someday, along with your beautiful son. You're too good a man to waste your life with a sense of "want and lacking".

You deserve more. You'll get more...in time and when you are ready.
((( )))
I agree. I'm in the midst of 'everything' and 25 is the one person who is keeping me right and giving me a kick in the ass when I need (which seems all the time lol). Ty 25. You're a star!!!
Thanks, 25....not to hijack your appreciation thread, but I hope you are right. These last two weeks have brought about another level of "wake-up" for me, as I think I am finally handing all of this situation over to God. I remember you saying once in a post to me that you would say that every day to yourself in the shower....that you are handing it over to God. I think I have finally arrived there and listen, I am NOT historically the most religious person you are going to find roving the face of the earth. But there are times when I am writing my thoughts, feelings, wishes and prayers in a little book and it feels as if I am being spoken to on one level or another and I write those words words down. Am I crazy? Hell - I don't know. Some would think I am crazy just by virtue of the fact that I am still here.....but in those moments when I write and feel like I hear a voice from within I experience a little bit of peace....real or imagined. I am just trying to listen and find a better path.

Crimson
....now can we all get back to heaping praise onto 25, please? smile
blush Ah, ya'll are so sweet.
You belong there, GM....you're right there with Sandi and 25 as far as I'm concerned. Looking back at my first post (which is hard as hell for me to read) it is clear that you have LITERALLY followed me from day one. That it truly amazing to me. Sure, we don't agree to EVERYTHING every time - but what friends do? You have been a tremendous, tremendous resource for me and I am grateful.
Geez, and Sandi, I know even know what to say to you! And I mean that in a good way - not the bad way! smile
LOL! Then that is how I'll take it.....in a good way.
I mean it in the best possible way.

Sandi, you were the FIRST person that got me to stop and try to understand her feelings and perspectives as a WAW. Prior to that, I was blaming her for everything and had no idea of the level and depth of emotions she was experiencing or had been experiencing. You represented her voice when I could not get it out of her. Getting that insight from you really helped me get going on my road to change and understanding....I am grateful for it....and I love you, too.

Crimson
Hey Crimson,

I've been wondering how you are doing. Can we get an update? Hope you are well and enjoying your own/& son time.

I really cannot wait to hear some good news at your end, but if it's not that time yet, that's okay. We are all here, rooting for you so much.

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Yeah, you never just drop by to chat. wink
Originally Posted By: labug
Yeah, you never just drop by to chat. wink


good one...but he's on his own thread I guess...or they got mixed up with this one.

Check it out and btw, when are you coming out to LA again, LA bug?
I'm not bug, but I'll be in LA (Anaheim) next month!!! smile
Darn, I'd almost fly out for that!
Crimson, you have a DB fan club out here. We'll need details!
Wanna. Not gonna. Been down this path before - just feels a little different. It could just as easily evaporate in seconds into the wind. Complicated - but I think maybe, maybe MAAAYBE some realities about life etc. are sinking in - probably going to take more time. I am not betting my liver on it - but I have a small, small, small cinder of hope. If it goes out, I just go back to my life again. But the winds are blowing for sure.....we actually even had breakfast together after church this Sunday - first time since she left for a second time a year ago. We didn't even attend the service...we sat in the courtyard and talked about things for an hour. LOTS more ground to gain, it's delicate and could implode at any second - but I can handle it if it does.

Still seems to have the unyielding fears that I am still the same person. It almost makes me laugh....my friends have seen the change, my family has...even you guys who don't know me from a hole in the ground have seen it. Her? Not so much...and even the SLIGHTEST indication that I have not changed forces her to say "I have a hard time believing you are a new person because you......". At any rate....keep me in your thoughts and prayers.

Crimson
Come on, 25 and bug....don't you want to go to Disneyland with me and the boy????? Four days of park hopping fun sponsored by an extortionist mouse that is bleeding my dry. Get onboard!
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