Wife says she wants divorce, but hasn't left yet - 10/29/12 09:51 PM
Here's my situation, and what I've done so far. I can provide more detail on the back-story if necessary, but I'll focus mostly on the current situation for this post. Any advice would be very much appreciated.
Back-story: My wife and I met six years ago, she got pregnant after a month of dating, we got married after 3.5 months of dating. Things went downhill fairly quickly a few months after marriage, I had an EA four years ago, and then things were mostly tolerable for the past few years. We had our second child 1.5 years ago, and then after 1 year of maternity leave my wife went back to work.
Present situation: Fast forward to 5 months ago. My wife had just returned to work, but after a year of mat leave we were used to her doing pretty much everything around the house, and she tried to keep that up even after she went back to work (and I wasn't much help, I was used to her doing everything). She started feeling very overwhelmed, and told me that she wanted a divorce. We talked about it, and I agreed that I should help more around the house, and did so. She agreed to stay. Things seemed to be improving, but then two months ago, she started talking to her ex boyfriend.
Prior to this, she was very open with her phone. For example, if someone texted her while she was doing the dishes, she would get me to check it and send the response for her. After she started talking to her ex, she got very secretive about it. She would stop texting and hide her phone when I came in the room, or leave the room to read and respond to texts. I got suspicious, spied on her, and eventually discovered that she was having a physical affair with him. As well, she had a date planned with another person, but that got called off when I found out (all the details of the spying and the affair would make this post really long, but if any more detail is needed, let me know and I'll add it). She claims that the planned 'date' was innocent, but I have doubts.
Physical intimacy (cuddling, hugging, kissing) has been very little over the past two months, and pretty much solely when I initiate it, and sex has been almost non-existent. She has been very adamant throughout this that she wants a divorce, has spoken with a lawyer, but hasn't gone so far as to actually separate (law here requires 1 year separation before divorce can be granted). She has discussed it at length with her best friend, and (to the extent that she's shared these conversations with me) her friend is completely convinced that the divorce will happen.
Reading through DB, the list of things NOT to do reads like a list of things I've done. Begging, crying, trying to convince her that we can work things out, trying to talk out our problems, trying repeatedly to initiate physical intimacy when she doesn't want to, etc. Even before reading DB, I had realized that this wasn't working, that it was driving her away more. I stopped most of those things before reading DB. Things have improved a little bit since then.
This past weekend was quite pleasant, we went out for dinner on Friday, had some friends over on Saturday night. Last night (Sunday), as we watched TV, she actually cuddled up to me on the couch, which was a pleasant surprise. When the topic comes up, she still says that she wants a divorce, but she only brought it up a couple times this weekend (previously it had come up any time we talk about anything more than a month in the future). We talked about a couple of events happening in February, and, while somewhat reserved, she was at least open to the idea of making plans to attend.
Things I've been doing differently so far:
Our talks are still not rigidly scheduled. We just sort of plan them whenever. She still complains whenever I ask to plan one, but generally agrees. They're also fairly open ended, they don't have a specific end time. We're having another talk tonight, and after reading DB, I'm going to ask her about making them a regular M/W/F feature, but limiting them to half an hour in length. That way she won't have to feel like I'm pressuring her to plan them whenever I ask, and she won't feel like she's going to be stuck talking about our relationship for hours, because of the time limit.
Any suggestions for what to do going forward? Should I be doing LRT right now since she says that she wants a divorce? Or should I keep going the way I've been going, since I'm seeing some small improvements, and she hasn't actually made a concrete move towards separation/divorce yet? Anything else I should/shouldn't be doing?
Back-story: My wife and I met six years ago, she got pregnant after a month of dating, we got married after 3.5 months of dating. Things went downhill fairly quickly a few months after marriage, I had an EA four years ago, and then things were mostly tolerable for the past few years. We had our second child 1.5 years ago, and then after 1 year of maternity leave my wife went back to work.
Present situation: Fast forward to 5 months ago. My wife had just returned to work, but after a year of mat leave we were used to her doing pretty much everything around the house, and she tried to keep that up even after she went back to work (and I wasn't much help, I was used to her doing everything). She started feeling very overwhelmed, and told me that she wanted a divorce. We talked about it, and I agreed that I should help more around the house, and did so. She agreed to stay. Things seemed to be improving, but then two months ago, she started talking to her ex boyfriend.
Prior to this, she was very open with her phone. For example, if someone texted her while she was doing the dishes, she would get me to check it and send the response for her. After she started talking to her ex, she got very secretive about it. She would stop texting and hide her phone when I came in the room, or leave the room to read and respond to texts. I got suspicious, spied on her, and eventually discovered that she was having a physical affair with him. As well, she had a date planned with another person, but that got called off when I found out (all the details of the spying and the affair would make this post really long, but if any more detail is needed, let me know and I'll add it). She claims that the planned 'date' was innocent, but I have doubts.
Physical intimacy (cuddling, hugging, kissing) has been very little over the past two months, and pretty much solely when I initiate it, and sex has been almost non-existent. She has been very adamant throughout this that she wants a divorce, has spoken with a lawyer, but hasn't gone so far as to actually separate (law here requires 1 year separation before divorce can be granted). She has discussed it at length with her best friend, and (to the extent that she's shared these conversations with me) her friend is completely convinced that the divorce will happen.
Reading through DB, the list of things NOT to do reads like a list of things I've done. Begging, crying, trying to convince her that we can work things out, trying to talk out our problems, trying repeatedly to initiate physical intimacy when she doesn't want to, etc. Even before reading DB, I had realized that this wasn't working, that it was driving her away more. I stopped most of those things before reading DB. Things have improved a little bit since then.
This past weekend was quite pleasant, we went out for dinner on Friday, had some friends over on Saturday night. Last night (Sunday), as we watched TV, she actually cuddled up to me on the couch, which was a pleasant surprise. When the topic comes up, she still says that she wants a divorce, but she only brought it up a couple times this weekend (previously it had come up any time we talk about anything more than a month in the future). We talked about a couple of events happening in February, and, while somewhat reserved, she was at least open to the idea of making plans to attend.
Things I've been doing differently so far:
- Trying to be more proactive about doing housework (not waiting to be asked)
- Not asking for sex or other physical intimacy nearly as often (though still sometimes). Since I reduced the frequency, she's been more receptive. I was rejected for kisses far less often in the past week than in the two months before.
- Started working out again last week. I'll be heading to the gym with some friends 3 times per week from now on. One of her complaints is that I've grown some love handles since we started dating, so I've decided to get rid of them (not just for her, for me as well, and so it's easier to meet someone new if we do get divorced). Working out also helps me feel better in general, which helps with:
- Trying to be a happier person in general, and especially when we're together. (Over the past two months especially, I've been quite depressed. Probably quite depressing as well)
- Scheduled talks. We've started planning our talks about our relationship in advance, so she knows when to expect them. Prior to this, she felt like I was talking at her all the time or would feel ambushed, and would just tune me out. At the same time, I felt like if I didn't talk about something when it was on my mind, I'd never get a chance.
Our talks are still not rigidly scheduled. We just sort of plan them whenever. She still complains whenever I ask to plan one, but generally agrees. They're also fairly open ended, they don't have a specific end time. We're having another talk tonight, and after reading DB, I'm going to ask her about making them a regular M/W/F feature, but limiting them to half an hour in length. That way she won't have to feel like I'm pressuring her to plan them whenever I ask, and she won't feel like she's going to be stuck talking about our relationship for hours, because of the time limit.
Any suggestions for what to do going forward? Should I be doing LRT right now since she says that she wants a divorce? Or should I keep going the way I've been going, since I'm seeing some small improvements, and she hasn't actually made a concrete move towards separation/divorce yet? Anything else I should/shouldn't be doing?