Letting My Guard Down - 09/16/10 04:10 PM
Friends ~
I know I haven't posted much lately...
I am still on here everyday however not much changes and who really wants to relive this day in and day out?
The past month H has done an about face...
Being kind, texting out of the blue to see how my day is going, asking me questions about little man, seeing him more than normal...
I kept my guard up...
2 weeks ago, he said he loved me...
Guard slipped a bit...
1 week ago, he stated the more he learns about God, the more open he is to "us"...
Guard is down more than it should have been...
Came into work yesterday and received D papers...
Hello idiot...
If nothing has been learned the past 19 months, I should have realized that when he is nice, the knife is going to come out and be driven in at full-force.
Even with a friend telling me not to trust him, I still did.
Today, I feel like I did that night so long ago when he admitted he cheated.
Numb, like I just took a billion steps backwards.
Just wanted to get this down for my records.
(((Hugs)))
I know I haven't posted much lately...
I am still on here everyday however not much changes and who really wants to relive this day in and day out?
The past month H has done an about face...
Being kind, texting out of the blue to see how my day is going, asking me questions about little man, seeing him more than normal...
I kept my guard up...
2 weeks ago, he said he loved me...
Guard slipped a bit...
1 week ago, he stated the more he learns about God, the more open he is to "us"...
Guard is down more than it should have been...
Came into work yesterday and received D papers...
Hello idiot...
If nothing has been learned the past 19 months, I should have realized that when he is nice, the knife is going to come out and be driven in at full-force.
Even with a friend telling me not to trust him, I still did.
Today, I feel like I did that night so long ago when he admitted he cheated.
Numb, like I just took a billion steps backwards.
Just wanted to get this down for my records.
(((Hugs)))