My wife informed me last night that she cheated. - 09/21/10 07:43 PM
I'm writing this as an absolute wreck right now, so please excuse me if I ramble. My wife told me last night that she cheated on me with a man she works with. It felt like someone sucked the wind right out of my lungs. I've never experienced pain and fear like that. I never even imagined that I could.
We've been having problems in our marriage for awhile now...probably a year, maybe more. We got married young, maybe too young, and my wife suffered the terrible tragedy of losing her father in a car accident during the very early stages of our relationship. She battled depression for many years. We've ben married for eight years now. Her depression made things difficult for us, but we got through it..or at least I thought we did.
We haven't had sex in three months now. Prior to that, our sex life was very inconsistent. We would regularly go weeks and sometimes months without making love. I didn't mind. I love so many other things about her and I chalked her lack of sex drive up to a naturally low libido mixed with depression. I was perfectly content to enjoy the other aspects of our relationship...the friendship, companionship, deep intimate connections...and I thought she was as well.
After the initial shock wore off last night, we had a long conversation. I'm a terribly rational person and the only way things make sense to me is to break them down into a calm logical discussion. What I learned from this was that she is completely happy with every part of our relationship except for the sex. She said that she didn't find me attractive anymore and that there was no spark when we touched or kissed. This hurt so badly that I nearly fell apart again. She said the one time encounter with the other man was to get her sexual feelings out of her system so that she could appreciate the other things in her life better.
I don't want to divorce. I love my wife. I love our life together. I love our home. I love going to movies together, Cooking together and just laying on the couch watching television together. I have had, in my past, highly satisfying sexual relationships. I have never found another woman who I connected with like my wife. I've never been able to share what I share with her with anyone else. I've never felt more accepted. I will give up sex forever. I don't care. I just can't lose that intimacy.
Please, someone, anyone, help me. Tell me there is hope.
We've been having problems in our marriage for awhile now...probably a year, maybe more. We got married young, maybe too young, and my wife suffered the terrible tragedy of losing her father in a car accident during the very early stages of our relationship. She battled depression for many years. We've ben married for eight years now. Her depression made things difficult for us, but we got through it..or at least I thought we did.
We haven't had sex in three months now. Prior to that, our sex life was very inconsistent. We would regularly go weeks and sometimes months without making love. I didn't mind. I love so many other things about her and I chalked her lack of sex drive up to a naturally low libido mixed with depression. I was perfectly content to enjoy the other aspects of our relationship...the friendship, companionship, deep intimate connections...and I thought she was as well.
After the initial shock wore off last night, we had a long conversation. I'm a terribly rational person and the only way things make sense to me is to break them down into a calm logical discussion. What I learned from this was that she is completely happy with every part of our relationship except for the sex. She said that she didn't find me attractive anymore and that there was no spark when we touched or kissed. This hurt so badly that I nearly fell apart again. She said the one time encounter with the other man was to get her sexual feelings out of her system so that she could appreciate the other things in her life better.
I don't want to divorce. I love my wife. I love our life together. I love our home. I love going to movies together, Cooking together and just laying on the couch watching television together. I have had, in my past, highly satisfying sexual relationships. I have never found another woman who I connected with like my wife. I've never been able to share what I share with her with anyone else. I've never felt more accepted. I will give up sex forever. I don't care. I just can't lose that intimacy.
Please, someone, anyone, help me. Tell me there is hope.