i'm giving up - 06/20/07 02:12 AM
Ok. Today I lost my house and my dignity. Take that I've already lost my H to OW and my kids to H 35% of time and I'm done. My bottom line has been crossed.
I went over to H and again begged him to work on M with me. Totally refuses. I behaved totally erratic and was crazy woman. I admit I hate myself like that - can see why he wouldn't want me.
Truth is guys...OW and my H can have each other. He is in love with her and wants only to be with her. Well, I say good luck and god speed.
So interestingly enough, I mentioned that and his demeanor even changed. Don't know if it was wishful thinking on my part or not. Mentioned maybe cancelling MC and he said we still should go, though its not MC, its nothing. Mentioned he even told OW he's going with me. Could it really be true? If so, what a mess of a couple they are!
Really, whats the point of MC? So I can belabor my pain? Truly if he thinks he can be happier with OW than with a W who would do anything to fix M with him, than there is nothing I can do. Again, good luck to them. Wish me luck in finding someone who will love me.
I know this goes against everything DBing but its how I feel tonite. I can't take this anymore. My kids deserve a male role model in their lives that doesn't run when "death do us part" really just means "til someone seemingly better does us part".
Well, I'll be checking in and giving feedback. Who knows, maybe I'll even change my mind
I went over to H and again begged him to work on M with me. Totally refuses. I behaved totally erratic and was crazy woman. I admit I hate myself like that - can see why he wouldn't want me.
Truth is guys...OW and my H can have each other. He is in love with her and wants only to be with her. Well, I say good luck and god speed.
So interestingly enough, I mentioned that and his demeanor even changed. Don't know if it was wishful thinking on my part or not. Mentioned maybe cancelling MC and he said we still should go, though its not MC, its nothing. Mentioned he even told OW he's going with me. Could it really be true? If so, what a mess of a couple they are!
Really, whats the point of MC? So I can belabor my pain? Truly if he thinks he can be happier with OW than with a W who would do anything to fix M with him, than there is nothing I can do. Again, good luck to them. Wish me luck in finding someone who will love me.
I know this goes against everything DBing but its how I feel tonite. I can't take this anymore. My kids deserve a male role model in their lives that doesn't run when "death do us part" really just means "til someone seemingly better does us part".
Well, I'll be checking in and giving feedback. Who knows, maybe I'll even change my mind