I’m glad you’ve landed here. There’s lots of wonderful people who will help shape and guide you on your journey.

Your husband is many, many years from coming back to you - if he does at all.

I’ve never, EVER read a story where a marriage was opened up and it worked out for the best. It always come from a place of someone wanting to cheat, but wanting permission so they don’t have to feel bad about it. Your marriage counsellor is an idiot.

I think you’re in for a really rough ride. Best of luck.

Work through the welcome thread that DNJ posted… and then the main things you need to prioritise are IC, exercise, sleep and managing your emotion.