Slone,
thanks again, you helped me to figure something out.
first I will address your post.
" Your need to criticize what I posted to someone else is interesting. "
the reason I mentioned your post to Tina, was because it was the first one of yours I recall reading and honestly not many others. When I had first read it I was shocked at how in your face you were to her and so presumptious of her situation. When she replied to you the way she did I was very impressed with how she handled it however I wondered how she personally felt when intially reading your post to her. considering all she was going through and comming here for suport and advice and getting what she got. When I received the post from you the other day on the thread I started asking the advice from guys to help me with comunication with my H. I was very very upset to say the least and I truly just wanted another way to phrase things so he wouldnt take what I was saying the wrong way again. Yes I was venting at the same time but I truly was looking for solutions. When I read your post it hurt to read and I felt defensive. then I rememberd a post Michele had written the other day
where she said:
quote:
Why do some people read feedback as critical while others hear it as helpful. I think it has to do with the strength of our "emotional immune system" at the time. If we are feeling defensive, hurt, lost, we are more likely to interpret things from a negative perspective. If, on the other hand, we are feeling clear, strong and centered, we are more open to hearing even somewhat challenging feedback. In favct, when we are at our best, we can let "inhumane" feedback roll off our backs.
so I read and reread your post taking out the parts I felt as unecessary attitude.
All that was called for, was an apology, and for you to accept the responsibility, without trying to shift the blame back onto him, for "forgeting" to remind you...come on!
I already tried to aplogoize to him and take responsiblity. It fell on deaf ears and he kept on and on at me I began to feel very upset by this and pointed out he forgot as well, so why couldnt he be more understanding of my forgetting. I dont believe in blaming someone for not reminding you to do something they requested, he and I have agreed to remind each other when we ask for it when things get hectic. I wasnt trying to shift blame I knew I messed up and was not denying that, I was trying to get him to quit yelling at me and being so mean to me when here he forgot about them as well.
I dont sit around blaming others for my life, I have often been told by the people close to me to quit being so hard on myself and quit blaming myself for everything. I really dont see where blame or fault really matters, to me its more about this is the situation now, what can we do about it now to resolve it.
anyways I was able to find the majority of your post very very helpful, except for the "come on!" I think that I just felt put down when I was already feeling really miserable.
so when I critisized your post to Tina, it was because I thought from what happend in that situation and after finding out the whole situation and having to apologize, I thought that would have been a learning experience for you to not post as if you have all the answers and you are telling some one how wrong they are, or perhaps to maybe think more of others feelings when replying. there are ways of saying what needs to be said with out being so "in your face" (for lack of a better term at the moment)
To me I had just been through a rough couple of days and was trying to get back on track. This morning I posted a situation that was a misomunication that happend last night that my H and I tried to resolve. we both were trying to figure out why we have this problem with only each other. I was hoping for input on how to communicate better in that situation in the future so it dosnt end up a frustrating experience.
I already am frustrated with my house situation and have to compete with the past me who was so perfect it makes me sick. I talked to my counselor a little about it the other night. I said I have gone from one end of the spectrum to the other. here I was always known and made fun of for being overly organized and never forgetting anything to now I am a wreck and cant remember a darn thing! I am constantly forgetting things. He sugested it could be my medication and that it has been known to cause forgetfulness. I laughed and said I would love to just use that as an excuse but I know I just have not been implementing my organizational skills.
I know I get so emotionally upset by fights with my H it throws me out of wack and I feel like I just cant function. I am not blaming him. I am trying to learn how to not have the comunication problems to begin with where Isee the same arguments occuring I have tried to explain things diferently and he dosnt believe me so I feel like okay now what. so I come here to ask for diferent ways of phrasing things that maybe men interpret better in some situations I dont know. I am trying to really practice detachment and sometimes I am feeling really focussed and centered and manage to get through disagreements unscathed. Its hard because he is very ilogical at times and I try to listen and understand him and I have a hard time deciphering when its just him being irational or its just a situation where we need to negotiate or agree to disagree. I think about it so much and get so frustrated.
here you said"
"I don't think I have an attitude. What I have is an impatience with people, who constantly claim, that they are looking for solutions, yet do nothing BUT complain. They never seem to actually implement, any course of action. That is not necessarily directed at you."
well I did feel you were saying that I am constantly claiming to be looking for solutions yet doing nothing but complaining. because in the previous post you said this:
[i]You spend alot of time on this board, making excuses, and explaining your positions. Your time would be better spent, on honoring your family responsibilities first. "
and I am suposed to believe that was not directed at me.???
one of the ways to find solutions is to figure out what the problem is, and its not always obvious. many inventions are made simply by listening to complaints.
I have been trying so many diferent solutions to problems I have with my H to no avail I got very frustrated and vented.
I dont believe all I ever do is vent. However even though I did a whole lot of getting my frustrations out and venting and complaining during that thread I also did a whole lot of solution figuring from the feed back, if you read through that entire thread you might see that. My H complains that I am too solutions oriented, always trying to solve problems. this is where I have been practicing active listening! thats been a solution to stop being so solution oriented with my H
When someone is very upset and venting their frustration I dont think its fair to make a judgement of them at that time. I think there are suportive ways of giving advice to people who are already down.
You dont know all I have been doing,I dont think, as far as implementing solutions. Chris has been helping me for a while. yes I complain when they dont work, we should feel safe to vent here and let this stuff out rather then hold it in. the way I get it out is write it out and I feel better. however posting it is more constructive because then others can look at it see things from the view of not being emotionally and see things I dont. I also reread my writing and am able to learn things from my posts.
I had already come to the decision it was time to cut way back on my online time. and I had posted a while back when I was still in I need suport that I wasnt going to be posting on others threads only mine because I just didnt have the time. Then others were posting questions to my threads. I have gotten so much here I dont feel right about not giving back. I still managed to do great for a while but then when I have a major upset I come here and I know spend way too much time here. I love learning things though and love to read as much as I can and reflect on things. both reading and writing here is great because you learn so much for yourself even when trying to help someone else. So I felt okay about being here so much when I am very upset because I feel like I get the most out of my dificult situation. But now its also contributing to problems, just like you pointed out.
Anyways I just thought if I could find better comunication alternatives to use to not get stuck in the same traps I could avoid having days like I did last week.
here you said:
"I understand the temptation and the lure of the computer, but I cannot believe that you can't exercise more discipline. Exactly HOW gigantic IS YOUR house that you cannot catch up?"
Its really not about temptation and lure to the computer and I think I have more then explained that already.
So you were not being sarcastic and putting me down when you asked how gigantic my house is that I cant catch up?
its large but not gigantic. my problem is, I am working hard and right behind me is the undoing working hard. It takes my constant effort all day to just do regular cleaning and upkeep. then trying to do the extras of having to reorganize literally everything in my house. I had the kids clothes organzied. off season stuf packed, out grown stuf packed to give away or to be grown into by a younger one and all the things they curently wear put away. then they decided while they were suposed to be cleaning their rooms to undo all the totes I had packed and mix them all up! they took everything out of the linen closest and proceded to do the same thing every where. many of these things happend while I was cleaning elsewhere or cooking. when I spend the time reorganizing then I fall behind on other things. I felt so overwhelmed by it all i just felt like forget it all. I have been through this countless times. I would rather come here and learn to deal with my other situations. well I felt like I got to a point with my relationship with my H to where I could take days off and not come in and I find myself thinking about everyone here and wanting to know how they are doing. Anyways I sat down wrote out all my problems and solutions (as far as the house is concerned) and was so excited and geared up and felt totally empowered. Then I had that blow up with my H and I let it break me down and disrupt everything I was geared to do. Anyways I feel a back on track pretty much and am attacking it all again. today I accomplished alot! I feel good pretty much on schedule. I felt bad about my post and wondered if I misinterpreted your post (in thining again about what michele had said to jude the other day) I wonderd if I came accross offensive in my post. so I came in during a quick break to find yep it appeared I offended you.
So I am very sorry about that.
Okay now here is where you really helped me realize something.
earlier I mentioned I found it hard to believe you were not looking down at me etc. when you said I misinterpretated what you had posted. I thought does she realy expect me to believe that??? then it hit me, hey thats how my H must feel! When I say something he misinterprets then refusing to believe me when I explain it another way so he can understand me.
then rereading that part I posted by Michele it totally made sense!!!
I was thinking I know you were only trying to help me from what you could see was going on with my life and you were merely pointed out what I had already come to the decision of. And I was defensive anyways.
I honestly wasnt tyring to be offensive to you in my post to you, I really felt you come on a little strong and presumptutious and perhaps you could work on that a little and take into consideration most people here are not really at their peak and are feeling down and warn thin, they could use more "suport" when giving advice. after you get to know that person and their whole story and you feel they are in need or recptive to in your face advice then give it to them.
"I feel it is inappropriate to try and compare people's degree of tragedy. Pain is pain, and everyone's pain is valid. We all have our challenges, and we all do the best we can, just with varying degrees of grace."
this is true, however sometimes when dealing with people they are situations where there is much more on some plates then others and fortunately I dont have any more time to go into that because breaks over I have to make dinner and I wont be back for a couple days.
so to anyone who made it through this, could you please offer me some solutions in the comunication question I had form my first post this morning... please thanks in advance!
Sue