I will write my story soon. I need sometime to do it. I have started it many times in my mind but it makes me sad so I cant do it at home neither at work. Just have to take that time to do it on my own.
My W was the lighthouse, her light guided me across the fog. I clearly remember each time I did the BD (3 times in total)...the false feeling of freedom...and how the feeling dissapeared after a while, confronting my own thoughts. Some heavy MLC with extra sauce! My W kept my world and protected my son. I lived a double life for 2 years. Those were not happy times at all. At the end I managed to come home and here I am now. Healing and fighting OW adiction day by day. I’m nearly 21 months clean now and fighting for more day by day.
This time of the year make us wonder for illusions...just keep those there and continue GAL. Get close to the ones that you can count on. You cant be wainting for your stbxh MLC recover. A new year is the chance for the reset. GAL Take care of yourself. You deserve it.
WW H(me): 53 W: 48 T: 27 M: 22 S: 18 Piecing since 03/2016 Saw the light in the storm
So got another card....this time from him. He wrote that he will always love & adore me until the day he dies and wished me happy holidays and all the happiness in the world. So strange....same guy who acted like he detested my presence with cruel anger and contempt.....wanted a divorce and stepped over my crying limp body and said "stop crying, I am trying to enjoy my day" on his way out to see his married AP.
Advice? I am inclined to ignore. A card isn't going to right the considerable and numerous wrongs that have transpired, but at least he is trying to reach out and on the surface seems remorseful?
M-16yrs together 19yrs H49/W42 No children BD-4/11/2017 EA- discovered 4/20/2017 / ongoing from 10/2016 mentions divorce 6/2017 files D 9/2017 currently mediating/finalizing D
Advice? I am inclined to ignore. A card isn't going to right the considerable and numerous wrongs that have transpired, but at least he is trying to reach out and on the surface seems remorseful?
See my above corrections. The rest is 100% correct and accurate. I would suggest slowly and symbolically burning the card.
