Hi Sunny! So happy to hear from you. I hope you're doing well! How are you liking this Fl heat?? Some days are gorgeous and other days I'm melting! I have a feeling it's going to be a hot summer.
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I feel so much better the last few days. I feel like I can breathe again. I know people were looking out for my best interested IRT ML I just wanted to clarify that I felt I did my due diligence as best I could. ML for me was actually reassuring because previous BD H wouldn't. He's more like the girl. When things are wrong or something is up it doesn't happen so this was reassurance and connection.
Work was super hectic the last few days with much tragedy and heartache but I work with a great group of people. I stayed at my moms last night. I didn't reach out to H but he did reach out to me with questions about kid related things that then turned into him just making conversation via text. He did say goodnight and I love you and I reciprocated. He also sent a text that said 'I'm trying to get back to my old self'. I just replied I hope so.. goodnight.
Saw the C today. I feel much better now. My last meeting with him was via phone so I feel today seeing him face to face was way better and more helpful for my anxiety. He also told me I seem much better. He's very hopefully and feels my H is very hurt and doesn't know how to act and that we obviously didn't do enough repair on a deeper level. He is going to suggest couples sessions regardless of if H tells him he's done or not. His advice to me was to be 'loving'. Ask how his day was, interact. But don't be pushy and I don't need to be physically affectionate or say I love you unless H does or he is acting like that's something he wants. Unfortunately he's booked all next week so H can't go until next Wednesday. I feel like I'm cutting it close to when I'll have the baby. Oh well
So that's it. That's where I'm at. Not really sure but I am feeling better so I will take this for what it is right now. I got home from work and went straight in the shower. I hopped in bed and H came in to kiss me and tell me he was going to work out and would be in soon. I just said ok. Maybe I'm getting the hang of this again.
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M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
Hi TO, I'm pleased to read this and it does sound as though you are getting into your groove... That's the main thing.
It's good to read about your H initiating things and you kindly responding - ie: the pursuit and distance dynamic turned upside down. I have read here before that it's wise to respond at 80% of their level of enthusiasm and contact with you..
Anyway, glad to hear you feeling more settled and steady - that's the main thing!! Sounds like work is busy and challenging for you though - I'll be glad to hear that you are finishing and giving yourself a little R&R time before baby arrives...
Take care TO and remember the forum is always here, should you need it.
Xx
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T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
