Attraction is natural, you should feel no shame in that. It is all how to respond to it, and seems you did fine.
I will share that after W moved and it had been 7 months of in house that I was very unsure what was going on and I struggled with this greatly. I dont want to blame it on being a man because that is a cop out, but After a period of really assessing what I wanted in my life and if I felt i was strong enough to wait this out and really give the effort I am refocused.
As far as the trip, look at the positive. If you go it is just a front to put on. Think about all the questions she is going to have to deal with about you not being there. Maybe she will get some reality checks from relatives.
enjoy your time.
M 37 W 34
T 12 M 8 D 7 S 4
Need break 4/12/15 W no ring 7/7/15
Separate room 4/12/15 Separate living suggested 8/15 W moved out 11/1/15
