Saw encologist today. Everything went well. Wrote me a prescription for Prozac. Therapist had advised me that I am a candidate for it. I'm not crazy about taking pills but I'll give it a try. I understand it takes a couple of weeks to fully kick in. Maybe it will get me through the next couple of months and the divorce.
STBXW has become very uncooperative. I don't think she planned on going through the stages of grief and I could be wrong but she seems very angry. At this point I am just trying to be strong for S13.
Going to a music festival this weekend and taking our instruments. Going to be fun playing music around the campfire. I can no longer sing as a result of the cancer and treatment but one of the greatest joys of my life is playing accompaniment for S13 while he solo's on violin and mandolin. I guess it's fiddle for this weekend! Going to be nice to get out of this house for a few days.
Peace to everyone!
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.
Shotgun, I'm not seeing new thread so I'll post here. Please be careful with Prozac, it should not be prescribed by an oncologist, only by a psychiatrist. If your therapist is not able to write prescriptions, he/she should refer you to a psychiatrist for evaluation and possibly prescribing it, but it is a very powerful medication that can have significant side effects, and it should be monitored frequently by a psychiatrist to begin with.
M 16 yrs, WH62, P54 3 adult blended kids EA 11/13, BD1 6/14 PA fall 14, BD2 2/15 Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15 Separated 4/16 WH moved OW in 5/16 Divorced 6/15/17
Hi shotgun, can't find your new thread, so I'm assuming that you are having such a great time with your son. That is a good news from the oncologist.
I have been on an equivalent of Prozac and there is nothing wrong to take it for a while to help you cope. It isn't a sign of weakness but a sign of growth and maturity as you tried hard to deal with things on your own but sometimes you have to ask for help and rely on it for a while.
About your wife being angry, I guess that she has underestimated the impact of filing for divorce and doesn't know how to deal with the fact that you have detached.
I hope you had a great weekend with your son. Hang in there :-)
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Go to the top of the screen and there is a new topic box on the left hand side. Click on it and then you will open the window to create a new subject as well as a posting. It's the same way that you created this thread.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Had a real ugh day here. Legal matters with the attorney. Felt much better after meeting with therapist tonight. Thank God for her!
Had a fantastic weekend with friends at a bluegrass music festival. S13 and I took our instruments and sat in with some amazing musicians around the campfire. Slept in a tent and it poured rain for two solid days but found a couple of short breaks that permitted some playing. Left there to stop at a muzzle loading shoot and met up with some musicians there that let us sit in also.
A note about title of new thread. It occurred to me tonight while frying bologna that I am getting back to being the person that I was before I lost myself in my marriage. I must say though that I do not have any regrets for having poured myself into my family and would do it all over again. In spite of the very unhealthy situation that it became there were also many blessings. I pray that God will continue to bring me peace and acceptance.
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.
