Just caught up on ur situation. So sorry to hear about your drama with your soon to be ex?. You've got this - move forward!
I like what you said in an earlier post: I don't remember how to quote. Sorry.
"God will never leave you feeling discouraged or hating yourself. God "gets" whatever your particular crazy may be.
If you hear negative chatter in your head, that's not God. That good feeling you get, that peaceful feeling, that "AHA!" THAT'S WHAT'S GOING ON! or THAT'S WHY I do THIS or I do THAT! That's God. Trust that feeling
Don't trust the negative. Listen to the positive. Listen to the calm.
Work on your level. Master that. Then, move up a level. That's my plan."
Remember the plan! Praying for you my friend. I admire your resolve and strength.
Heather, You need to start a new thread. This one is going to lock very soon.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
