Honestly? I think I need to sit down with myself and have an authentic conversation with me. Maybe I am putting too much into him and his needs at this time and not thinking of taking care of mine. I say he is scared but maybe I am scared of trying to raise the bar and being rejected. And I shouldn't be.
I think the conversation I had with him today may be a good starting point. If he IS committed to the family and does not want me to be with other men and has agreed that he will not engage in affairs of any sort, then what does that mean about us as a married couple? Where do we go from there?
Yes, I see how it might be time to raise this higher and start acknowledging my needs and wants well.
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
H is slow. He will take the path of least resistance if I allow it.
He might not mean it but I am devaluing myself if I do allow it.
Even though I love him, I love me too. Not one of us should compromise who we are or what we want.
I am not being authentic if I do not communicate with h and only continue to tow the line.
Jack, Mach, Starsky ..... Like the three musketeers... All for one and one for all.....Thank you ... I wish I could have a drink with you all I'll come back later with updates. (((((((((((((((((((()))))))))))))))))))))
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
Yeah...maybe I'm not so ok with it anymore...I have been frustrated with the pace.
It's like you guys could see it ....
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
