Eyes on the prize...

[artsy]

Thanks, girls.

I've had friends come over and do most of the labor, but there's other stuff (like interior doors that need to be replaced) that will just have to wait until the money is available. It's not an emergency in any way- but why does he keep talking about it??? Ugh!

GB, he is supposed to bring the dog back this evening. I have been praying about it because I will absolutely go off the DB rails if he doesn't. I'm absolutely done being on his roller coaster. I want off. Yesterday.

[Matt165]

We are all with you about wanting off the roller coaster artsy! The thing is, once we do get off, the longer we are on, the longer it will take to get over the dizziness and get back to normal! That is the scary thing!

[Ggrass]

Maybe he keeps on about it as its a safe topic.

Mine kept organising stuff that I had organised, interfering when I asked him not to.

Then when I need something not just smoke an mirrors bam, he's gone, totally gone.

Hence I've been dark ever since.

[artsy]

Thanks, guys- we can't fix crazy. Best if we just stop watching it!!!

UPDATE: I fled the house on the assumption H would be dropping off the dog and money as he promised.

While I was enjoying my Dairy Queen Blizzard, the following text exchange occurred:

H: have you been paying someone to mow your grass?
Me: ????? No! Why?
H: it looks awesome
Me: thanks for the compliment! My yard work game has improved dramatically.
H: sounds like everything has
(He!! Yeah! It has because it had to and I wanted/needed it to!!!! - kept this to myself, of course but beaming with pride on my end of the phone)
H: maybe I was bad for you
( at this point I yell at my phone:" oh, come on!")
Me: you know that's not true. I'm sorry you feel that way.
Me: you were my hero, H. You made me better. I will always remember that.

I got back to the house, where the dog is back!!!! Yay!!!!!!
And he gave me the money from the rental. On the envelope he wrote he would have the big money for me next week.

I will most likely do face to face for that...as long as he behaves himself until then!

H is still in his pity party!!!! I really think he thought things would fall apart without him.

My 180s have been noticed!!!!! Yessssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!

[Shining]

Yay, ARSTY!!!! And yay, dog!

Isn't that the best! You're doing awesome!

Oh, and yay money $$$$$, of course. But that's besides the point....


Yay, doggie!!!!!

Wait...Dairy Queen? Be right back......

[Georgiabelle]

DQ? Artsy, we can seriously be friends.

Glad the dog is back and you did great:-)

[artsy]

It's a relief, for sure, Shining!!!

I hope he behaves himself- it might be nice to see him.

Tell the lady at DQ I sent you---- I've become a regular there. It's my treat to myself for going through this ordeal.

I'll buy next time!

[artsy]

Yes, GB!!!!

I think I've figured out how to use the Blizzard machine--- we could be unstoppable!

[artsy]

UPDATE:

First if all, my classes start back up on Monday. I am soooooooo ready to get back to "work". This has been a very long summer. I had to face loneliness head-on, and it was horrible.

H stopped by today to change the oil on the truck and give me the next chunk of money (which should cover the mortgage until March).

I had been praying for several days to just have a relaxed, easy-breezy visit. Well, I got it! Praise God! H wasn't Mr. SadFace, and he gave me a long hug and a kiss on the cheek when he got there and when he left.

He was only interested in talking about himself. Lol! Which is fine. I tried to tell him about my clinicals that start next week and he redirected the conversation back to himself. Lol! BUT, no drama, so I'll take it!!!

New level of detachment, folks!! YESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!

So, H leaves at noon. 2 hours later I get the following text:
"I wanted you to take me to your bedroom, but I know that is wrong for me to say. I'm sorry."

LOL!!!!!!

Now, for the record: I was wearing my cutest, skimpiest running outfit. The post BD diet and running 3 miles every day has certainly helped in that department.

Even though I'm not attracted to him right now, I knew I couldn't waste this opportunity- this is a first for us in MLC land.

So, I reply: "hmmmmmmm... You never know! ;)"

Let him chew on THAT for awhile!!!! Hahaha!!!

[Georgiabelle]

Artsy,

Look at you , Miss Easy Breezy. I'm glad it was a drama free visit and know you are ready to fry back to the books. You will be the hottest one in the clinicals!

Sending you a chips ahoy blizzard:-)