Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can #

[marina7]

Gerda,

Thank you

Yes do I think me being outspoken and passionate
About my kids well being and how W and OW
Treat them bit me in the butt.

But the one that pist the GAL is when W choke s9
Amd when GAL heard I called CPS Gal was mad
Why did you do that M your going cause so many
Problems.

So yelp me caring to much made it seem that
I am the one causing W to be who W is.

I have broken nights trying to figure out this
Nightmare I am going through

Everytime I try to bring W actions I been told
The past is the past even if 2 weeks ago W
Had s9 punish in bed for 4hrs.

I am at all.

So my mistake was everything W did I wrote down
And sent to GAL with screenshots of W and I text
GAL said I told you to use wizard, I said I can't I don't
Have money.

Another thing anything my lawyer requested for free
Gal would want something else that cost money.

Is simply crazy, yes do I love my kids yes do
Am I outspoken yes I am. And I guess to the law
That does more damage.

Is so sad

[peacetoday]

M

I don't get it really

Im sorry for your pain


but keep up your energetic work
the story is not over

send them all love light and forgiveness

meditate morning and night

and journel the thoughts after meditation

[marina7]

Peacetoday,

Me either, what I been told
is it looks like my focus is always W.

Example Me answering W call.
Why did I do that.

My answer is because W had the kids.

Well W said story is totally different
The he said and she said.

I simply don't understand. Me caring to much
Cause more damage.

And one thing that lawyer said was the judge
Concerns is Trios are taking care off me.

Which again how do I prove that. Put Cameras in
my house they can see.

Again if we put facts out there it doesn't add up.
D10 and s9 school are doing amazing

Also they think me doing divorce groups for kids
And all these support groups also making it seem
I am trying to stay in the past.

So again it doesn't matter what I did or say they
Would find it wrong.

Speaking for myself these groups and church saved us.

They taught me so much and I say this d10 and s9
Are in such a better place then s10.

S10 didn't even say hi to me or sibilings his head was down

Is so sad that I can see how broken he is.

[kml]

Except most of the time when you see GAL on these boards we are referring yo Getting A Life, so context is important.

[marina7]

Kml,

I understand and GAL has never seen or ask
What I do. I know that am always keeping kids
And I busy.

Library things, or in the summer We kept busy
And kids scouts.

When I didn't have the kids I catch movies
Sometimes on my own or BF.

I only did what I felt was Right when I needed to send

I would ask W on my weekend's with s10 can I pick up
Early, W response would say Where you going
Or Why or is it important or I need proof and who you
Going.

Speaking for me this was wrong for W to ask me 20/20
Questions when I use to ask a simple question.

And yes I use to send GAL email with conversations
Of W and I,

And many of Times GAL never responded.

Or another was the first refusal. My lawyer
Filed first refusal 2hours or more.

I again tried to explain to GAL why when GAL ask
And it didn't make sense and GAL kind of laugh at
How ridiculous it was to file

If I was giving the chance to explain the way my lawyer
Knew was W was constantly dropping s10 and Ex MIL
Or OW family.

If W was busy or needed s10 to be watch why
Not give me the opportunity to have s10 for those
2 hours, 3 hours whatever it was, why was W always
Taken away from US.

I just never understood and in meeting of Friday
W exact words in Spanish
M you should have left things how it was.

And smirks with OW.

This is simply things W has been allowed to
Get away with.

How can I not be outspoken about this.

Trust me, my part I care to much for my kids
I show it.
Where W is unemotional and stays very calm
Where yes I tear up I am human.
Especially when I am living this hell with W.

Especially the part where GAL invited OW to meeting
As now, we all 3 must coparent.

I sat there in all like how is this happening

If W can't even coparent with Me how can we
Involved a 3rd party especially OW.

Many have ask how is this allowed OW is mistress
Again W has denied that and they where only friends.

Anyone that has gone through this hell knows what
Am dealing with.

And yes I know GAL and therapist and lawyer
May not understand the MLC crap they do.

I sometimes lay in bed in all. Like I even ask myself
If a friend was telling me this was happening to them
Would I even believe it. It's so unbelievable the
Crap we go through.

And the ones that know and believe me is because
They seen it unfold or when
My step mom came and W didn't know she was in town
And mom hearing W speak to me or W text or even
Hearing the kids talk that when my mom realized OMG
You are going through hell.

To hear her say this to me I ask mom directly
Did you not believe me her response was
I thought you might have been over telling the story
But now that am here I see it and this is horrible.

So part of me knows that even me filing in court
Was maybe taking out of context.

But I just filed exactly how everything happened which
I honestly only seen crap like this on T.V shows

I never thought this could happen to me.

So yes many ask how could this had happen I again don't know
But if I would have stayed quiet then I might still
Have been taking as me not caring for Trios at all.

So I am dam if I did or if I didn't.

[Kyh]

Marina, I’m sorry how this turned out. Please try to stay positive and take care of yourself.

A few pages ago you didn’t you say w brought the kids over to you when it was her time? I ask because I was wondering if you thought w would agree to 50/50 if you asked. Her and om’s actions towards the kids say overwhelmed, full custody might be more than she can deal with.

[marina7]

Kyh

Yes W was overwhelmed and I thank God
She reached out to me.

We agreed to 50/50 but w wanted me to move
So basically it's always been what W wants

And with the help of therapy and lawyer
And even here. I can't allow W to control
Where I live and what I do.

I do pray that this here of W wanting to play
House with ow makes W realize what the
Hell did I do. Or W at least to realize I
Can't do this. No matter what in 7yrs total
W never ever cared for our kids this long
And when I was out of town in business W
Would call me to say control the boys.
Or you need to hurry up it was always something

I now have to let God and my guardian Angels
Protect them. Till I raise more money now to
Get them back full custody. Again that's if W
Doesn't give in because handling Trios is
Hard. I been told you are amazing M how you handle
3 kids.

Even my step mom said I don't know how you do
It. You make it seem so easy.

So now only a Miracle can happen

[peacetoday]

M


You did everything within your power
You are a good Mom and you don't have to buy into their lies
keep praying and pray for W and OW send them light
things may be difficult for a season- but you will get through this
nothing is over yet-

keep listening to positive u tube videos

try to find some hope-peace and love the kids your best

give them all your love-and yourself too-
God is here
you are not alone

[peacetoday]

M

How are you

[peacetoday]

Marina

hope you are ok