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Will do, with apologies. Didn't mean to hijack anyone's thread.

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Originally Posted by paco123
Will do, with apologies. Didn't mean to hijack anyone's thread.
We all do it - like a bunch of neighbours gossiping and helping each other out.


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Originally Posted by paco123
I am grappling with the question most of us struggle with: is this an aberration or is this the new normal? I think most of us who love our spouses would agree that if we new with certainty it was the former, we would wait. The uncertainty is what is most taxing for me.


Lord, yes, that's it in a nutshell. That's the entire dilemma right there.


I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living.
Wait for the Lord with courage.
Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.
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paco,

No apologies necessary, but we would like for you to join us, if you so wish.


Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
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No need to apologise Paco, I didn’t feel that you hyjacked my thread smile

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A little update,

It’s getting so much better here. I don’t quite know what I expected when H first came home but it’s now patently obvious it was way too much.

They do say on here ‘keep expectations to zero’ and it’s so very true.

H has been home over four months now. In that time I have gradually become less paranoid and sensitive.

He has settled in to being home and not a ‘visitor’....he is becoming more and more himself week by week.

He’s lost so much weight and is getting fit and I now find him attractive again.

I have a good feeling inside and I know this may sound idiotic to the newbies out there, just starting on this long and lonely road.

But.....I have gained so much through this experience and have learned to appreciate the person I have grown to be and what matters.

Me, my kids and family.....oh and time. Time to appreciate all around me. But most of all me.

Never mind H......he’s by and by.

He’s home now, and I’m happy and contented (piling on the pounds!) but I’m happy.

It’s not just about me though.....he’s back with not only me but the whole family.

And that’s a wonderful thing. I always had faith he would. I’m really looking forward to Christmas......

It’s been a long time coming.

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Wow, Westco, so happy for you. Amazing. You truly sound so peaceful. Have a nice pot o' tea and know that I am sipping one over here and thinking of your happiness. XOXO


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Thank you Gerda x

Journaling,

H has to pick up a works vehicle tomorrow, which means I will be able to drive our new car.......after over two years.

Hearing him and S talking upstairs arranging S to take him to work in order to pick the Jeep up warms the cockles of my heart.

I missed their lovely deep Welsh voices interacting with each other. It brings warmth to my soul.

I looked over at H the other evening and looking back was the man I used to know. His face is slim again and the light is back in his eyes.

I’ve learned to listen to what he says (through this site) not just hear him as I used to do, and I take notice and act accordingly.

I’ve started to decorate for Christmas......I haven’t bothered since BD.

I’m still mindful to put me first though and I hope I always will. I honestly think I will.....

It benefits us all, not just me.

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Westo,

Wow, just catching up,
I always look forward to reading post like this.

It brings hope for my kids. Not even about me.
I know they miss W. Hoping and praying oneday
They will get their mom back

Thank you for sharing your post with us here
Especially us newbies we sometimes need that hope ....


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Hello Marina,

Welcome to my story. I’m so glad I bring hope to you and your kids. It is my main motivation to keep posting updates on here.

All I will say is.....YOU will know deep down if your partner is in MLC or is just a WAS. I was a victim of a WAS in my first marriage, literally did WAW and left me with all the bills.

This time it was different. I witnessed the lights going out in H eyes. I’ve said it many times. His soul was sad. It isn’t now.

Hang on in there.....if they are to come back, make it the easiest route for them to do so. If they don’t....then you have nothing reproach yourself for.

But remember in all this, YOU are the most important person in this now. Put yourself on the pedestal and remain there.....always.

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