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So I guess that I haven't detached enough to where hearing about the ex possibly dating someone else doesn't bother me. Just received a call from the sister in law saying that one of her patients said that my ex is dating or seeing his son. Who also happens to be best friends with two of my good friends. It felt like a gut punch. 23 months post BD and 10 months post divorce signing and it hurts like it's fresh.


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Sorry to hear that. I am finally feeling detached after 18 months, and I KNOW I would feel the same after hearing news like that.

You need to treat yourself tonight. Anything fun to do on a Thursday night?


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Bro hug

Yes that hurts

Absolutely

Acknowledge it

Work through it

Lift your cries to the Lord


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You are the prize. You have been the prize and you will always be the prize.


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Sorry to hear that SBJ.

That is a gut punch. Cannot really prepare for it either. That news is always a surprise / shock. Hopefully once the suddenness of this wears off the pain will subside somewhat.

You are doing good man.


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I appreciate the kind words and the support. It is just a shock. Not a surprise as that is what they do...they are searching for the elusive true love, happiness, and soul mate that they are sure is out there.

sjohn, as for treating myself last night...I was able to cook dinner for myself and my youngest. We then took our dinner and climbed onto the couch and watched a funny movie that neither of us had seen. At 11 his giggle and laugh is still so childlike at times and is healing and soothing.

I was able to end the night with a nice glass of wine and watch my oldest and a buddy hang out on my back patio with a guitar and cigar. I think I just found the title to my first attempt to write a country song. HAHA!

God is good and knows what He is doing in our lives even if we don't. Sometimes we simply need to step back and re-evaluate our circumstances. I guess because things had been getting better between she and I, my expectations had gone up. I need to recommit myself to just do me, take care of my kids, and keep my expectations to ZERO.


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Wow, that sounds like a great evening to me! Glad you got to enjoy it in that way. Spending time with my kiddos often lifts my spirit as well.

Im right there with you, working at zero expectations. Living life each day like a new day and enjoying it like its my last (while hoping it isnt).


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Happy Father's Day SBJ.

Hoping you have a wonderful day.


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Thinking of you

Hope you are well

You and your kids


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Journaling...I had a good fathers day for the most part. I woke up extremely early and I was the only one up for about 4 hours. It was nice, but I also got into my own head a bit thinking about the past. I know that it was a day for the kids to thank their fathers, but when the family is still not complete it was still hard.

The ex stopped by and dropped off some cheese cake for the 4 of us and said that she and the kids had a great time picking out my fathers day gift. I am a craft beer fan and most of them have very catchy names to them. They grabbed me all of the ones that made the 4 of them laugh. They might taste like $#*!, but the names are great. HAHA!

Staying busy with my church and men's group. It is keeping me centered on what is most important. Also making headway on the guitar. It is difficult because all of the songs that seem the easiest to play are some of those sad country songs. Need to improve so that I can get into some more genres of music.

I hope and pray that God's grace be enough for us all as we navigate these waters.


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