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I am here to make you smile.

I saw my IC on Saturday for the first time since November. The first thing she said was your smiling you must be in acceptance.

You're probably not quite there yet but it's understandable you are not even at a year yet. You did the right thing by waiting to you left and then just working through it.

It's probably gonna hit me to when my kids move out.

Lastly, have you watched Californication on Netflix yet? Picture yourself as Hank Moody. That's what I do lol!

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Well....you do a good job of it in many ways smile

I have not seen my IC since November as well, probably something I need to think about also.

My oldest is such a champ. Happy, go lucky, always in a good mood, a non-stop chatter box. My youngest is the lover, still walks around with her blankets and a stuffed bunny, still [censored] her thumb. It was something about the way she said it. It just hit me hard.

It will. No matter how detached you are with your W I imagine you will still feel emotion with your children. The pain I feel for them far outweighs any sort of pain or sympathy I feel towards my W. The two are not even comparable. I just want this over with.

You know, I watched Californication on Showtime when it was in production. I got through the first 4 seasons I think and eventually lost interest. Maybe it was timing in my life but yes HM had himself a ton of fun smile. That guy couldn't help himself.

Maybe I will start from the beginning and watch it over but right now my guilty pleasure is the Walking Dead.


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I bet it was timing. Hank is not a good role model for married men lol! If you watch it again notice the chemistry with Hank and Karen. It's real, even though he fuchs up all the time, the chemistry is amazing. I didn't have that ever with my W. I want that someday.

As for Walking Dead, Rick's a bad a$$ alpha! I pick up on the $hit now while watching shows and movies. I don't get AMC (on a budget lol) so I have to wait for season 8 I believe to come to netflix.

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Hank didn't give a crap but she kept on coming back and couldn't let him go. Hank was an Alpha in his own way.

I didn't have the chemistry either, I agree.

I don't have AMC as well due to my budget smile. I just stream it on-line and watch it on my ipad.


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Yep Hank's an alpha and Runkel is his beta. Took a bullet for him lol!

On a side not Kawahi should be back soon. Need him bad!

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On a positive note.......I got the numbers back from my mortgage guy and I am going to stay in our home. I should be ok with the money I will be saving on insurance and a few other things so I am excited about that!! It will be a little tight however if I budget properly and stick to it I should be good!


Excellent news. I still keep going back and forth on what my final decision will be on the house situation.


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You are still standing J9. You can cry whenever you want. But there you are. Lighthouse keeps shinning.


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KG.....I thought about downsizing to a smaller house but I would have to downgrade neighborhoods as well. Where I live houses are flying off the market and people are not accepting contingency offers so I would have had to move into an apartment first and with my 2 dogs it wasn't really going to work.

My payments are going up $500/mth but if I move some stuff around I should be ok.

I think it is good for my girls as they know the neighbors, they are comfortable as well, etc. When I told my W she was happy I was staying. If it wasn't going to work financially obviously I wouldn't of had a choice.

N.....Yes, I am. It felt good to let it out. Hadn't cried in a while, not ashamed but my youngest really got to me. She is so sweet. Lighthouse is still shining and as I continue to get stronger I feel the mental shift within myself. Now that I feel really good about all aspects of my life, physically, spiritually and mentally it helps reaffirm my value and confidence.


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J9, I'm happy you'll be able to keep the house. It'll provide some stability for your kids. If you do need to sell later, you can do it on your own terms and at your own pace.

Crying is a mixed blessing in my book. It totally [censored] and it hurts. But it's good to be in touch with your feelings and acknowledge them. I recently read that people who are emotionally the healthiest are those who experience a wide range of emotions.


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S13,S16
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W filed:7-17-17
(5 months of in-house separation hell)
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Quote:
I recently read that people who are emotionally the healthiest are those who experience a wide range of emotions.


Well I am pretty healthy then! smile


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Bomb Dropped: 5/28/2017
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