Hey all, it's been a good week. I was able to hit the gym a couple of times, going to go tonight after work as well. I have had my girls this week so it has been filled with the morning and evening routines of dinner, homework, baths, etc. Last night I took them shopping after work and got them both some ear muffs and gloves along with some jeans and a shirt for my oldest. She is starting to get concerned about how she looks and what she wears and the store Justice is her big thing! They are also into bath balm's so I bought them a couple of those as well.
Tomorrow night the kids and I are going to our town's Christmas parade with some close family friends and then we have church on Sunday. I also need to get the Christmas lights hung outside the house as well this weekend.
I have not seen the W since Sunday and we had some email communication on Monday about my youngest D's basketball schedule. Her first game is tomorrow and my oldest has a soccer game at 1 so I will see her a few hours tomorrow. The W did send me a text message earlier reminding me that both our D's are due for another lice treatment tonight with this special shampoo we bought.
I had my last IC meeting for the year last week. My IC still breaks me down every time the topic of my girls come up. We spoke about my moral compass and it being the reason why I am standing for my MR. I told her that my girls were doing really great and then she asked me if I had thought about filing for D myself since your main concern throughout this whole ordeal has been my children. I told her I had and then she said well since they are doing so well maybe it is their way of telling you that it is ok to let go. I didn't know how to respond to that, essentially putting myself first.
She broke me down again. Dam her
Still no more mention of following through with mediation and no additional conversation about Christmas either. I suppose she will wait until the last minute or even the night of to make her decision. Either way I feel as though I am in a really good place emotionally and am prepared for anything.
I wouldn’t worry about until after the holidays. Just keep doing what you’re doing. The more time that goes by the stronger you get. Just believe that whatever happens it is happening exactly the way it’s supposed to happen.
My W and I have a verbal agreement on everything. I’m getting close and excited about my new life!
Her moods fluctuate. To be honest I don’t see her that often and when I do it’s for short periods of time. I’ll give her credit she still takes care of house like it is her own. I’m very happy with our agreement and think will co-parent well.
The young lady I met on the beach in the summer texted me last week and asked if I am still married. I told her yes but not for long. She said ok I’ll wait lol!
Man a couple guys received D notices today. In my opinion it’s only gonna get worse.around here. It’s really sad but I come every day trying to give hope and pay it forward.
I've broken down during my IC sessions and specifically during talking about the kids. I feel you brotha!
You know you are staying strong till the holidays and let that be. Enjoy your time with your daughters and all the joy they bring in your life. Hold them close and shower them with love and affection.
I just picked up indoor lights and will transform my kids rooms this weekend. Making this holiday festive and full of love for them from me. Choose happiness with your D's till the end of the year. Have a bottle of wine on NYE and then wake up the next day full of purpose and clarity on 2018.
You got this bro! You've been an inspiration and learned so much from you. You're an incredible father and you will only get stronger for them as years pass by.
I’m very happy with our agreement and think will co-parent well.
In these situations I assume that is the best you can hope for if you have to go through it. I am happy for you that you feel the deal is fair, etc.
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Man a couple guys received D notices today. In my opinion it’s only gonna get worse.around here. It’s really sad but I come every day trying to give hope and pay it forward.
This place is theraputic but also depressing at times. Some people come and go I assume thinking there is a quick fix or they are just really trying to find some answers. I will say the longer it goes on the less hopeful I am and for many of us our conversations are just right around the corner.
You got this bro! You've been an inspiration and learned so much from you. You're an incredible father and you will only get stronger for them as years pass by.
Thanks M...I appreciate the kind words. Some days I feel like I am walking the Green Mile. I cycle between feeling really good, wishing this was over but also willing to stand a bit longer. I assume the cycling will stop and when it does I know how to proceed.
. The D's are baby ballers!