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Dear ciluzen ..thanks for visiting my stitch and for the brilliant words you shared. I guess yes I am trying to be the light house in this case as with my H nothing else worked. Not sure if it would work but then again nothing in this world is certain.

When I started this journey I got a lot of sound advice but somehow when our emotions were high it is difficult to listen and put into practice. I think it take at least a year to get hold of ones emotions and start figuring how we want our next life to be like. Once we reach this acceptance stage that’s when things get better for us.

I was told need to be patient but that was such a difficult skill to obtain. I was told to take care of myself and not wait. I honestly failed so many times on my expectation that he will come and take care of me. I was told focus on your kids which I did but always were looking for his input or feedback. I was told to loose expectations which took a lot of time to master. Every birthday came I thought he will surprise me or the kids. None of that happened.

There are lots of great advices in the first email I got from job when I started my stitch and I keep going back to them sometimes to learn something I missed the first time.

In the beginning when I started email I was trying to think were these coming from Spence of strength or weakness. I tried to analyze and figure out my own motives. I am sure they are not weakness as I don’t beg or plead as a matter of fact I don’t even think I can be with him again and I stated that. I just wish him well and hope to have a good working relationship with him one day. When he is able to find his voice a speak.

Thanks ciluzen again for for nice works... really sppreciated.


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Journaling ...
Last email sent was 4 days ago . He tried to connect shyly with them small short msgs but they did not answer. I guess sometimes they don’t know what to say. So my email today was mainly focused on my perspective and my analysis.


I understand he is trying but they sense he is still distant. They also don’t know what to expect and so they maybe trying without thinking to protect themselves from attaching to him and he might be doing the same. I said it might take time for both to decided what kind of relation they want. I asked him to think how does he want that and wether a yo yo relation is what he is looking for or a deeper one. I told him when he share places he visit it is really nice but kids don’t know how to reply as they don’t have that in common.


Let him think , I also attached an article on fear of intimicy saying this might explain kids actions although it can also explain his. ( I didnot say that) Maybe I should not have done that (attached the article) but it is ok to make mistakes sometimes... I don’t have the fear of consequences no more.

At the end I just said will keep sending you some updates maybe it will be of benefit for him and the kids .signed a friend .


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