Westo - thinking positive thoughts your way and sending you an extra hug - I don't know how to cwtch.
You've got a good support network around you - don't be afraid to lean on them.
On BD H52, W50 T27, M26 S21, D23 BD-9-Mar-16 D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18 I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good. But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells
Thank you Andrew...a cwtch is easy, it's like a hug only with an extra squeeze!
I'll practice on one of the cats for just in case we ever run into each other ....
On BD H52, W50 T27, M26 S21, D23 BD-9-Mar-16 D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18 I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good. But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells
I asked S to take insurance renewal docs to his Granparents house for H to sign and he told them about my 'news'.
Anyway my phone rang a couple of hours ago......it was H. I haven't seen or spoken to him for a year.
I didn't pick up, I was shaking too much. On the third attempt he left a message. He sounded very upset on hearing my 'news' and he wanted to see if I was ok but didn't want to call unannounced.
He rang D at the same time asking where I was and that he would continue ringing until I picked up.
She suggested I may have gone for my walk, so he drove along my route for twenty minutes and that's when he left the messag.
She knew I was home and she really wanted me to pick up the phone. I'm not ready to deal with him right now.
I need to digest this and his calls, before I can meet him. I had it all planned in my head. Make up, hair done, fake tan and this just threw me.
I can't help feeling rather annoyed at him. This is my bad news and what on earth does he think just ringing me like asking if he could call!
A year ago, I'd have jumped at that phone all, but not now.
Do you think it was just to ease his conscience, or am I being unfair?
I am sorry to hear your health news. There are some new treatment plans that have been successful and I hope that your doctor stays on top of this. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
I think your h is concerned in his own way. He may be off in La La Land, but deep down, he still does care. It's up to you as to when you are ready to tell him about your health news.
Sending positive thoughts your way.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Just received this email, in response to the happy birthday email I sent him on 1st which he didn't answer until now.
Bear in mind this is the first time he's ever initiated contact or to ask how my mother is....
Hi Westo,
Thanks it was just like any other day to be honest.
Anyway I rung you earlier as I was concerned for you after being told you have had some bad news health wise, I wanted to call to see you but did not want to call out of the blue and tried ringing the house 3 times and then D said you may have gone walking again, I looked up the mountain but you were not there so I will ring you again next time I be down surgery either next Monday or Tuesday depending when I can get an appointment, I hope you are feeling ok and hope to speak to you soon, I have messaged S yesterday and today and hope he has a nice birthday and I understand he is off to Miami again soon, how is your mum these days has she been ok.
