Keep Wearing Wedding Band? [Thread #3]

[ForGump]

typing with one hand
sitting in son's bed
son fell asleep on my right hand
good day with son, lemonade stand, fixed his new (used) bike, grilled dinner, read harry potter
he's nothing but sunshine for my soul

no bomb today underwear still clean
thought all day about WW feeling it's martyrdom to be with me
all done unilaterally

melancholy

hearing in my head ellington's in my solitude
monk's version a slow one heard years ago

tonight i would like to be drowned

[Surfer]

FG

I HEAR and feel your utter LOVE for your S. Get it. I am there with mine (and D).

Please do me ONE favour for him, but mostly you. Stop giving a sh!t about her. THIS is detachment. LOVE her - yes. NEVER stop hat. But in a man's mind, or mine for definate, you need to think - "fukc her. I can't be arsed thinking about her 'poor wiring' anymore. I'm not an electrician. I can't rewire her. She will have to rewire herself" - whilst having fun!!!!! Win win dude. Win win.

Get out there, the door to your dirty, dark and scary prison is unlocked and open. You just need to step outside. The sun is shining out there, there's a beach, ice cream and the hottest babe that will adore you. If your W comes to you find so be it but then you choose. But for fukcs sake don't stay in there! It stinks of p!ss in there (your cell) ..... worst of all, your S can smell it!

Let him smell the sweet scent of a Dad that rides the horse and is not the horse. Saddle up cowboy!

Come on man. I am waiting to see you do this. I'm standing outside your cell and am telling you get the fukc out. AND NOW!

Surfer.

[Surfer]

Most of all mate.

Don't start to like yourself again!

LOVE yourself. Know who YOU are again. There is your best friend in there. Find him. He's a cracker of a pal....

[Surfer]

Get some uplifting tunes on - recently found Royksopp - amazing! - dance like a t!t round the house. Gym, run read but most of all smile my friend. Please start to feel the sun on your face. Get out of the cell. You are no electrician and nor am I. That's someone else's job.

Surfer.

[lt0402]

Can't say it better than Surfer, so I won't try. But I will say that we are here to support you FG. You are a great guy and an amazing dad! It will get better brother, keep your chin up!

[CT1118]

ForGump,

Knock, knock, knock. Wake up my friend. Your last statement, call your IC if needed. I understand and empathize with how you feel. Believe me, empathy does not come easy for me with my issues. But I am not BS'ing, I do feel it for you.

Take care of yourself today my brother. This woman may be kicking your as$, but that does make the day done. Everyone here cares about you.

If you need to reach out, do it. I will be there as I can.

[Surfer]

Exactly. Knock, Knock son!

We are all standing at the door of your self-built prison. Get the fukc out of it....

Anyone at home?

FG?...

Surfer.

[Surfer]

Still here mate. Are you clearing your foggy mind? What's going on......?

[Surfer]

I deteste this. Knowing you are going through this. I have been there and it is awful. I get it but stop your fear - get out there and leave that cell....I PROMISE it's beautiful to let it go. Let her go. LOVE her yes, but let her go. If it works then fine, if not so what mate? You get you and your son. The best bits with none of the sh!t. Drop the rope.

Here for you mate.. Just waiting.......

Surfer

[CT1118]

For Gump, where you at dude!?! We got a search party out her for you - warm food, dry clothes, some open arms.

Where you at brother?

I hope you just needed a break my man.