Newbie - my story

[hawker]

Good job! Has she tried to contact you?

[maybs]

No. And I'm kind of surprised by that. Even though she moved out 3 weeks ago she was still contacting me pretty consistently. But I'm not super worried about it. I actually feel really good about it, which I didn't think I would but it feels nice to be taking time for myself and working on the things I know I need to work on and not having to stress all the time about if I'm going to say or do the wrong thing.

We will see how I feel about it over the weekend when I'm home alone with no distractions.

[maybs]

Last night I had a dream that W wanted to come home and try to work on things. This is the first dream I've had like this since this whole thing started and I feel it's more wishful thinking since she's given no positive signs as of yet.

But now I can't shake this terrible feeling I have that something bad is about to happen. I don't know if it's just "the low" after having such a positive dream or if my intuition is right...The only thing I can think is that I'm about to be served divorce papers....

[Cadet]

Not sure if anyone has mentioned but their are other same sex marriage LBS's that have posted here.

Wonka, NYGAL, needgrace and I am sure others.

Here is a link for NG's first thread

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubb...671#Post2231671

[JksD]

Maybeep, hawker is in a sane- sex M too.

[maybs]

Thanks for the link. I will def take a look at it when I get home tonight.

[hawker]

NYGal has been a great help to me!!

[maybs]

So before today I had not been stressed about receiving D papers. Earlier I had a really bad feeling that today was the day that I was going to get them.... I talked myself out of it while I was at work. I thought positive thoughts and told myself that it wasn't the worst thing that could happen. That I had things to be grateful for....

And then I got home and I got the papers.... And now I feel like I'm falling apart.... I do not want this divorce and I'm so frustrated that W isn't even willing to put in a single ounce of effort and I fully believe that this is a mistake....

I have accepted that I can't change her mind and there's really nothing I can do about any of this except to work on myself... But it's hard not to just wish that she would slow down.... W didn't even move out a month ago... It all feels so rushed.

[hawker]

Wow, I am sorry Maybeep....that is fast!!! I think people would say keep using the LRT...but maybe the vets can tell you more.. Hang in there and keep doing things for yourself!

[maybs]

The thing that confuses me about this whole thing is she isn't someone who is normally impulsive, or makes rushed decisions.
She also is one of the sweetest, kindest, most caring people I have ever met.... but not the past 6 weeks.

She's been acting super rashly and irrationally and has been extremely uncaring and cold. And it happened like the flip of a switch, it was very sudden.

I just don't get it.