Life 2.0

[Painter]

Hi Phoebe, I'm sorry that I don't have a thought of the day for you! Still feeling kind of sick and tired.

Son and I went to the festival today for a few hours, but couldn't stay very long because both my dog and I had stomach problems (dog was home). It was very nice, though, but I'm exhausted from the little bit of walking we did. This was an event related to my home country and I ended up volunteering to help with translating at the genealogy society. I guess I just needed to fill my time some more!

The event also made me homesick for my country, so now I'm homesick for two places and feel generally lost and sad.

Tomorrow, I'm working a late shift so hopefully I'll feel better by then. I feel a little brittle, though. Most of all, I want to contact H and beg him to tell me that this is all just a bad dream.

[Phoebe]

I was only kidding about the thought of the day. I enjoy them, but you're not under any obligation to provide me with inspiration by any stretch. I really just wanted to see how you were doing.

Can I ask what language you were translating? That is wonderful that you are able to help with the local genealogy group, though I'm sorry to hear that it added to your homesickness.

It's hard to feel good mentally when you don't feel well physically. I hope that tomorrow brings you better things, like a calm tummy, a well-rested morning, and a bit of relief from missing your past. You are doing really well. So much has changed for you in a very short time that you are bound to have days where you aren't feeling your best. You are still on your healing journey.

(((Painter)))

[Painter]

I'm having a bad night. Took a pill that should kick in in not too long, but meanwhile the tears are running.

I want to send a text to H and tell him that I really hope he's insanely happy, because all this pain better have some kind of payoff.

[Phoebe]

Oh no. I am so sorry it was a bad night. It does sound like the storm was brewing before it finally washed over you. I hope that you got some sleep and that today is feeling a little better.

Happiness gained at the expense of another human being is never worth the price.

(((Painter)))

[Zues126]

Sorry things are so hard. Divorce really stinks. I think it's the worst thing in the universe. I don't even have to see what's on the other side of super-cluster MOO J1142+1527.

The only bright side I can think of is that I flat out admire people that suffer from D as their pain is a thermometer of how much value they place on their marriage. No, I don't want you to suffer, but I am glad you're a good person.

Hang in P.

[Painter]

Phoebe, thank you. I fortunately slept the entire night and felt a lot better this morning. I worked from 2-9 and had plenty to do before that, so kept busy.

I was texting with my stepdaughter who is visiting H next week. She and I both feel really bad about it - she doesn't want to go home and see all my things gone and me and son not there, and I feel really bad about not being there. However, she said some really lovely things. She said she was so moved by my statements about how I'm still standing for my M and won't file, and that I'm willing to reconcile, that she didn't even know what to say - except that I was a rare person and she was so glad to know me and be my family.

It really warms the heart to have her support.

Zues, you made me smile. It's a nice way to look at it and I will, next time it hits.

[Phoebe]

I'm so glad to hear it was a better day. You deserved a change in the weather.

[Phoebe]

Hi Painter! Just a drive by hello.

[Painter]

Hi there!

A very uneventful day here - texted some with H this morning about a bank problem he was unaware of. I fixed it for him and he (gasp!) thanked me. We had a decent and friendly exchange and I ended it. And I don't seem to be having such a hard time with it today.

Otherwise just took care of sick dog - got her medication from the vet. Poor thing is supposed to fast for 24 hours. Tomorrow she get 5 tiny meals throughout the day.

My son and I went shopping and then watched some TV. We follow certain shows and had a good time. We laughed and joked a lot today.

Also marketed my health service on Facebook and got my first booking.

Tomorrow I'm having lunch with a local friend, then catching up with some former colleagues, and plan to chat with another friend back home on the phone after that. Lots of socializing that's not work!

Not sure if I should go to the last Divorce Care gathering in the evening - it's a potluck.

[JujuB]

Hi Painter

Congrats on your first patient! I am so impressed with how productive you have been since this very recent move. That says a lot about your resilience.

Socializing helps so much! Something I need to do more of. I get most of mine through my job but that's not enough. I Am so greatful for these forums as well.

I think I get what your saying about divorce care. I went to some meetings and found I was getting depressed afterwards. Just like reading the newbie stories. I feel like I am reliving that acute pain. Plus they are on Friday nights, which is my long day at work and I am usually too exhausted to go

So here's to less bad days and more good days as time goes on.

Hugs

Julie