I started the day sure i was going to give W space and not initiate any convo. When all of a sudden i get a surprise call from one of her office mates sprouting some nonsense that the OM left office suddenly using anothers staff's car i.e he borrowed someone elses car.
First i thought well i know where my W is, shes went to meet her GF for breakfast. Ofcourse the paranoia from the mysterry caller infected me and i had to check up on her.
Well that led to a little fight / tif.
Now im suppose to go home for lunch, W texted she ordered lunch but i kinda dont feel like seeing her after the fight. If i dont go it wont look good either cause she took away lunch for us.
We are also suppose to go watch a movie later.....i know i know pursuing..... maybe i'll just ask her to bring a friend instead.
Me31 W31 M11yrs S6yrs 23Mar16-BD 9Apr16-W admitted EA w boss. 27Jun16-W Changed job and promised NC w OM. 14Jul16-Continued contact w OM.Start of Separation. 24May17-Divorced.
So after lunch W initiated R talk. Its the same thing ILYBNILWY, still cares about me etc, sees me as a deep friend and father to our son, waiting for me to be on the same page etc All with tears in her eyes.
I mostly just listened and towards the end said im not interested in just being friends and left it at that.
Apparently we are still watching movie later as she bought the tickets yesterday. Im not sure how i feel. Its a movie i want to watch but i am not sure how to act around the W now. We are obviously not going as a couple. I guess ill just enjoy the movie and participate in whatever conversation that happens.
Me31 W31 M11yrs S6yrs 23Mar16-BD 9Apr16-W admitted EA w boss. 27Jun16-W Changed job and promised NC w OM. 14Jul16-Continued contact w OM.Start of Separation. 24May17-Divorced.
Me31 W31 M11yrs S6yrs 23Mar16-BD 9Apr16-W admitted EA w boss. 27Jun16-W Changed job and promised NC w OM. 14Jul16-Continued contact w OM.Start of Separation. 24May17-Divorced.
Dont know how to get out of it now without being a jacka$$. We pretty much confirmed going earlier after the R talk.
Im just going to go and enjoy myself, it is a movie i want to watch. I'll just pretend im "accompanying" her.
Anyways made plans for myself Sat night. My turn to go to border for boys night. I think im going to go ahead with my tattoo as well. At this point i dont care, i want it, i've been wanting it forever, and its my kids name.
Me31 W31 M11yrs S6yrs 23Mar16-BD 9Apr16-W admitted EA w boss. 27Jun16-W Changed job and promised NC w OM. 14Jul16-Continued contact w OM.Start of Separation. 24May17-Divorced.
I've been thinking about my GAL. I think i am going to see if i can get back into kickboxing competition. Im still young-ish, just a few nagging injuries but the focus will atleast give me something to aim for.
Me31 W31 M11yrs S6yrs 23Mar16-BD 9Apr16-W admitted EA w boss. 27Jun16-W Changed job and promised NC w OM. 14Jul16-Continued contact w OM.Start of Separation. 24May17-Divorced.
Plus hitting things will help with the emotional rollercoaster right now.
Me31 W31 M11yrs S6yrs 23Mar16-BD 9Apr16-W admitted EA w boss. 27Jun16-W Changed job and promised NC w OM. 14Jul16-Continued contact w OM.Start of Separation. 24May17-Divorced.
