My story job 9140 (4)

[Jb9140]

Bumb^^^^^

[otw]

Gift from kids. Nothing else. Do not ask if she wants to switch. Unfortunately her thinking and yours may not be on the same page.

[Jb9140]

Is it normal for your head to spin more when you have the kids?

[otw]

Lol. It is the worst time for me!

[Jb9140]

Day 27 NC (phone, text, email, social media, Sunday drop off is unavoidable)

well today was going pretty good until about a hour ago.
Went to gym, have had a decent day at work, and then boom.

My dumb ass co-worker says, "man have you seen ex?"
now let me preface this by saying that almost 3 months ago I shut down all Social media that i had accounts to. Sure enough my co-worker is on Facebook and has my wife's profile up, he say, "She looks like [censored]!!", and to be honest she does lost weight, dark circle under eyes, etc... so sure enough I start looking at the feeds on her profile, and the mind reading begins.

Nothing big exposed, but never the less its got me spinning. I really think Facebook hasn't gotten out of hand. also made sure to let co-worker know that I'm really not interested to hear anything in regards to my wife.

[pinn]

that brings back memories. At the start of this thing people would do similar things. I politely told them I was not interested in what she was doing so please do not tell me. You can talk to her or keep her following her on social media, just keep me in the dark. No one mentions anything about her to me anymore.

[Jb9140]

Yeah that's why I had to shut it all down. I was absolutely obsessing over it. it really didn't help my cause one bit.

[sandi2]

I really think Facebook hasn't gotten out of hand. also made sure to let co-worker know that I'm really not interested to hear anything in regards to my wife.

Good for you, letting the co-worker know you didn't care to hear about it.

[Jb9140]

Day 28 NC (phone, text, email, social media, Sunday drop off is unavoidable)


I cannot detach today. I'm having the worst day, so far since my wife left 1 month ago.

It's taking everything in me to not email her and beg and plead for us to work on our marriage. I have know idea what has triggered this emotion.

I haven't cried like this in months. I in complete fear that this is never going to turn around. I know that the fear is my true enemy, but i just can't seem to harness it today, for good use.

I'm sure this is part of the process, but damn I didn't think This type of pain would come back.

I would like to know if any veteran out there could explain to me how to come out of this going dark process with out looking like I'm pursuing.

[otw]

why is the first question