She just sounds mixed up. Keep being the lighthouse and working on you. Forget the A for a minute. It sounds like it's not too big a deal right now. Just go with the flow.
Me:43 Her:42 M:14 S:9 EA started 2014/03 (or there abouts) PA started 2014/05/30 BD:2014/11/05 I left 2015/10/01 I returned 2015/05/02 She left 2015/06/10 OM still on the go.
If anyone is awake now, I could use some reassurance and encouragement. Don't know why, but it's been a particularly rough night emotionally. Just laying in bed crying right now. This is testing every ounce of strength I have right now.
It's not right that I'm giving up half my time with my daughter. I'm scared that this is moving toward divorce, and the way courts work, my W will get custody and have total control over when I get to see D2. Our state is "no fault" and won't consider W's affair.
Hang in there ralphy. I know it's tough but you can do this.
Me:43 Her:42 M:14 S:9 EA started 2014/03 (or there abouts) PA started 2014/05/30 BD:2014/11/05 I left 2015/10/01 I returned 2015/05/02 She left 2015/06/10 OM still on the go.
Ralphy, I'm sorry my friend. Feeling the pain and releasing it is a good thing. It's understandable that you feel the way you do, and things will get better. In my sitch, I have found that periods of calm follow those where I felt terrible - hopefully that will be the case for you too.
In terms of the courts....they will be keen to support children having a good R with both parents. Your W doesn't hold all the cards here....
Take care, and I hope tomorrow is a better day for you.
((((((Ralphy)))))
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
Thank you so much everyone! I fell asleep almost immediately after posting. Today is a new day. I have to work on PMA and not dwell on things I cannot change.
Almost screwed things up with a stupid text message today. Thankfully, the tower fell in the right direction. Closing off that tunnel for good - no cheese in there!
Still a lost soul, but I'm slowly finding my direction. IC in the morning, and we're focusing on ME, rather than my situation. I welcome the coming improvements.
Looking forward to a nice Loooooong weekend. Rehearsal tonight, then going to a show tomorrow night. Get to spend the day with D2 Saturday, then D2, W and I will attempt a night at the fireworks Saturday night. They also have pony rides, so it will be fun for D2! (Just have to remember STFU and that I'm out with a friend on Saturday night-PMA). Not sure about Sunday yet...maybe a long overdue trip to the gym. Then I have Monday and Tuesday off work, so I get two full days with D2. Better get planning on that!
Had a great IC session today. I like my C a lot. Really starting to get to the good stuff about me now.
My pastor ends each service with "Be kind, be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a battle." It sure is true for all of us. Happy 4th everyone.
