Worked 2 jobs today. Both were big, feeling over it all. Need to get diet back on track. Although gained 4kgs then lost 2kg in 2 days.
Need to cart wood and then rocks for drive way repairs still. Sigh so much to do. Sent a pic to the child and he responded but now is my bestie, without my signature he cannot get welfare. Funny that.
In no rush, as he was never in a rush to do for me. Lace up his abuse even a week ago.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
Scales went up over the weekend and then due to salty food dropped 2 kilo over 3 days.
Just by giving up the salt and hormones that time. Sigh. But still up 2 kilos. Need of get out and do some physical work. I need to get off the salty greasy food.
Bought veg to make chicken soup for next weeks dinners and bits of pizza ingredients to make some healthy calzone which help with pizza cravings. Need to get back to planning meals again.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
Good job I read this as its nearly 12 here and I'd forgotten to get the pork steaks out for dinner tonight. Should have time to defrost now otherwise its a chicken curry instead.
Are you doing any morning exercises, even gentle ones. I've found that since I started doing those (which was a b*tch to start doing...hellooooo willpower where are you) Ive more consistantly lost weight even if its small amounts, its also helped with my troublesome thighs!
livestrong has some good low impact stretching and callisthenics stuff btw although some of their stuff makes me out of breath and achy watching the videos.
Hope its all going well, it was good to hear you had a good time in the big city and we shall henceforth call you GPS-GG
Have a good one
Edz
M:44, W:46, S:10 M 13 years, T 15 BD:23/7/2014 W/S Moved to MIL: 23/7/2014 My new place: 21/11/2014 W/S back to flat 22/11/2014 W coming closer, talking 4/2015 Piecing 5/2015 Moving in again 6/2015
Originally Posted By: Ggrass on the LBS thread 3 page 10
And yes nilla you say something better than me.
The I will not be abused it a good one.
My kick a$$ shoes and hawt dress was born from the idea h expected me to turn up to collect my possessions and either
a beg and plead B seduce him.
Wel, he knew I was coming ss saw me and spoiled the suprise. I did however take the option h did not expect which was turn up keep it short and leave before his abuse could start.
I did steal the line, oh look is that the time I have somewhere to be, I'm already late.
Which is what h always accused me of being late. as I drove away I saw him literally spinning circles in the rearveiw mirror.
It was powerful, regardless of what h felt, it felt good to take back the decisions and be me as unpredictable as that is.
I just love this Gg and I want everyone who reads your thread to read it.
I am so proud of you, my gorgeous friend Gg. I can never thank you enough for your care and support in some of my toughest moments here.
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Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
That TEDx talk on abuse triggered me badly, ended up in tears. It wasn't me who was threatened by h but s17. There were also abusive name callings, constant degradation and a threats to leave me stranded. There was always that feeling that I was unable to get any needs met.
H did make out to be the abuser, in so many ways. I still doubt myself. I don't believe I name called to the same level h did. Yes in some ways I did talk in a jackel like way which h took as critism. It wasn't meant that way.
H did what that lady's h did by making her think she was in control, never the case. Also mine didn't hit me but s, that was a way of keeping his hands clean and giving him more leverage than hitting me.
He was even trying to continue abuse when I turned up dressed up. He wanted me to follow him round while he collected my stuff tottering round paddock in heels.
Um nope mate, I stood waiting just inside back door, and outside. It was a fetch it a$$ hat attidue from me.
I post warts and all to show you guys it's no different for any of us. Up down round rise repeat.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
Of all the stories I read recently the one that worries me most is zelda.
Her h sounds like mine. If he's told her they are piecing it's inlikely as he reads like 1000000000000000000000000000000x a narc. He appears not to care Because he doesn't. Narcs care about them and no one else.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
that time. Sigh. But still up 2 kilos. Need of get out and do some physical work. I need to get off the salty greasy food. 
