Part 10 - Contents may prove volatile

[edz]

I vary mate, last night was down in the dumps processing too much again, trying to follow my own / jims / Vs / your advice and put away what I cant control right now. My choice to live my life being mopey, sad and a lovestruck puppydog or to try to be and feel happy (and some would say sarcastic, cheeky maybe even dazzling - no, probably not) I'll try the latter for now and see how it works out at least until I cant then I'll regroup again

I know what you mean about feeling wanted though, I've not been paid any compliments recently but it would be nice (with w or someone else) to feel wanted again and not pushed to the periphery as part of the furniture who is just "there".

[Ggrass]

Part of my h spew was I treated him like crap.

I never called him names, like w$&@, but he did.
I never made threats that would leave him unsafe, I tell him tho he could chose to leave.

I did say we could end it usually after he called me nasty names. Or when h assulted s17.

Yes I did stay silent on things I should have spoke up on, but h didn't want to improve the r he wanted control.

That's why I sort of did a program of doing things I knew h would hate.
Hair, make up sparking up my humor. Openly greeting men,being friends with shock horror men!

It also an action I have moved on, I would never have done most in r.
Now any man will have to put up or not part take. It's me, not neg.

Not neg however is still unfinished protect.
Well sat at work will be fun. Need to zzz or there will be no party gg at work!

[gan]

Well Edz, I will say that I find your use of humour very charming. I suspect a few of us rally around your thread because we enjoy your cheekiness. It lightens our spirits. It's fun to be around. And I've even been inspired to try out a little humour myself. The other day I noticed that I made people laugh twice in a meeting - all because of you, so...

Consider yourself complimented!

[edz]

Gg - I wont comment too much on your H's behaviour, I think you know how I feel about that kind of - no other words - spousal abuse, no one should ever belittle or have their partner feel threatened, ever, no excuses. Even if its misinterprited (and from what you've said I dont think theres any misunderstandings there it wasnt) its supposed to be a loving relationship and I have no idea what goes through peoples minds who behave that way man or woman (and yes I know men whove been on the receiving end as well).

Very different from control alone, thats sometimes a security / overcaring situation. Neither are good but at least the latter can be understood even if its not be encouraged.

We are all unfinished projects, otherwise we stagnate something I figured out about myself as I'd done exactly that for 5 years.

You will do great Gg, anyone who doesnt want to spend time with you? Thats their loss.

Anyway get some Zzzzzz catch you tomorrow.

[edz]

Well Edz, I will say that I find your use of humour very charming. I suspect a few of us rally around your thread because we enjoy your cheekiness. It lightens our spirits. It's fun to be around. And I've even been inspired to try out a little humour myself. The other day I noticed that I made people laugh twice in a meeting - all because of you, so...

Consider yourself complimented!

Aw thanks G, glad I can help.

[edz]

Well work day ran long today thanks to the wonderful offsite tech engineers but seems resolved now. Off to sort some dinner and feed a particularly squeaky BFT.

Catch you all later.

[edz]

Evening all

W texted me about tomorrow. Asked could I pick s up before 10 texted back saying no worries up to anything good she replied to say off with some other mums from the home education group just said cool, sounds good have a nice time and stopped.

Is she doing that? Honestly dont know but have no reason to dispute it and if not well more time with s and nothing I can change insofar as w so let it go for tonight and relax for a bit.

[Sotto]

Absolutely Edz.....end of a long week. Have you poured yourself a little glass of wine? Nice that you get to have a good chunk of time with your S anyway. Was tomorrow going to be Ikea day?

I'm off to see my BF and her son (7) tomorrow. He's super company, and we're going to take him out for lunch somewhere.

Have a good evening!

[edz]

Thanks toots tomorrow special science event in the evening (astronomy) need to get there early Sunday is w s and I IKEA day

Have a good one tomorrow!

Oh yes here under new throw comfy robe TV and had two glasses of Pedro jiminez

[edz]

Ok then Friday night.

Remember that dating profile?

Remember I asked my mate to take it down?

He sent me the credentials to log in so I can.

He did well in the info he put in, no PIC thankfully logged in this evening, 7 days or so up. 237 views 45 messages can't tell you what they say as I didn't pay, ladies profile pics looked nice though can't say much more. Feel bad since can't reply and I hope they didn't go to a lot of effort and feel ignored!

Gave me some hope for the future if I need to go there anyway with a PIC probably more like 10 and 0 though lol.

Good mood tonight.

Realised I dont have a printer for this ticket email for tomorrow so going to w tomorrow earlier and setting it up to print them off. W also had asked a while back did I have extra cable for her stereo found it today and texted her to say let me know and I'll cut it to size (its on a reel) she got the text late so only just replied. Went back saying ah tis you again no worries she sent back well u started it

Who knows what tomorrow will bring tonight has been fun