And I seriously thought, I mean seriously, that I had the easiest sitch. Which is why I didn't post for months. I was like, oh man, I feel for some of these people. I know my sitch isn't that bad.
ROFLMAO!!!!!!! And here I thought your sitch was one of the hardest ones here!
(And yes, I'd make a good host for Cheaters! Once you've read enough of these sitches, you can smell the lies from a mile away.)
I almost cringed at it, myself. But, I am doing something different. The reason for the name, itself, that I gave myself many months ago.... donno. I think I knew I would have to be that in a way.
So, now, this time is about me. In my world, anyway. In my previous post, I mentioned how I loved to laugh and joke. It's kind of my thing. Not that I'm good... but what I like. And, so, since I know it, and that part of me feels dampened down, I don't like it.
That, among other things, have come to my attention, that I need to springboard myself into myself. Figure it all out. And, like xh figuring out things without distraction... well.. I need to do the same.
I want to walk a little taller. I want to walk a little stronger. I want to have more laughter. I want to remember things (incredibly forgetful and scatterbrained these days). I want to be confident. I want to be independent. I want to finish tasks successfully. I want to be a great mom. I want to be a great friend, daughter, sister, aunt. I want to be real. Authentic. Understanding. Compassionate. Funny.
I want to walk a little taller. I want to walk a little stronger. I want to have more laughter. I want to remember things (incredibly forgetful and scatterbrained these days). I want to be confident. I want to be independent. I want to finish tasks successfully. I want to be a great mom. I want to be a great friend, daughter, sister, aunt. I want to be real. Authentic. Understanding. Compassionate. Funny.
OK, done.
I'm gonna do this.
THIS is the same woman I "read" all night last night ... and, yes, even today, despite the shi!tstorms hurled at you, hardcore, the past little while.
I'm glad to have crossed paths with you, Mighty, and that a little of my own sh!tstorm might have helped. (And/Or maybe WILL help.)
You rock my socks, sista. You're miles ahead of where I've EVER been in this process.
You and me, baby? We're stuck like glue now. And I can't wait to see you continue to shine, shine, shine!
Rock on.
M: 40 H: 44 Married 14 years S11 & D6; D20 & D19 from previous M 2BDs/PAs, 8 years apart Piecing: April 2014
About 12 years ago, one of my girlfriends knew her H was cheating. And I knew it, too. We devised a plan:
Three of us girls got together, and my girlfriend convinced her H we were going to the beach for the weekend. We all dressed in our beach-finest - even packed luggage and crammed it in my SUV (!!!) - and drove to my friend's H's job to show him the directions I had printed to make sure they were the best ones - and, of course, to make sure he saw that the car was "packed".
In other words, it was entirely believable. Almost to a fault.
That night, we all dressed in black and conducted surveillance from across the street of his workplace. We drove an unrecognizable car at a safe distance, following him to his family home, where - of course - OW later met him.
We busted up in there with a video camera rolling as my girlfriend confronted her H. I happened to be the one holding the video camera.
Okay, okay. So we were young - in our early 20s - and a little dramatic at the time. But all that to say ...
Ellie is host of our new "Cheaters." And I'll be the camera"man."
Bahahahaha.)
M: 40 H: 44 Married 14 years S11 & D6; D20 & D19 from previous M 2BDs/PAs, 8 years apart Piecing: April 2014
Hey, that's how we roll, right?! Good news is: my girlfriend wasn't really heartbroken or devastated. It would have been really crappy if she had still been in love with him.
But, she wasn't. So it's pretty funny. We still laugh hysterically about it.
M: 40 H: 44 Married 14 years S11 & D6; D20 & D19 from previous M 2BDs/PAs, 8 years apart Piecing: April 2014
It's an old dinosaur "tape," which fit into a VCR tape-thingy. Lord. *I* feel like a dinosaur all a sudden. So, yes, there's absolutely the real chance it's still here. I'd just need the accommodations - and time - to find it. That would be so awesome. Lmao.
M: 40 H: 44 Married 14 years S11 & D6; D20 & D19 from previous M 2BDs/PAs, 8 years apart Piecing: April 2014
Good news is: my girlfriend wasn't really heartbroken or devastated. It would have been really crappy if she had still been in love with him. 
We still laugh hysterically about it.