So, it was not the results I initially wanted, but I believe there is a silver lining in it.
Believe it! Then again...the choice to see the silver lining is yours. Choose wisely.
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
I have not posted much about my situation lately. Been letting the dust settle and see where things go. Things appear to be changing in a good direction both personal and professional. I have an interview tomorrow and hope to be entering the workforce again. Other things are improving and I hope to be able to report positive things soon. Keeping my fingers crossed on many fronts while not hoping for too much.
Twisting on Life's Rope Me53 W53 M20 D21 D19 D16 BD 2-2013 D final 1-2015 _________________________ "Dream about tomorrow, Live for today, Learn from yesterday"
That's awesome!!! Glad to hear things are going well:-)
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
So I spent most of Saturday with Ex doing taxes and some repairs for her. While traveling to and from the accountant we discussed kids as well as some of the issues. She vented that she had lost her home at one point. This is the most time we have spent alone together in about a year. I can see that she is still baking by some of her actions and words. While at the accountant she would not allow me to help her with her coat, Yet allowed me to open and close the door on the car for her. So, she is peaking out a bit, but still baking. I will have to take this real slow and not push. I have to remind myself to allow the relationship develop to what ever it will be without getting impatient. I also have to accept what comes and not get my hopes up or hurt in the process. Keep moving forward with my life.
Saturday night was fun. My oldest called and asked if we could go out to dinner. My oldest, her boyfriend, my youngest, and I went for Thai food as they wanted to try it. I took them to a place I knew and they had a great experience for their first time.
The interview was mixed feelings. Not sure yet as the man I was supposed to meet with had a customer issue and had very little time to spend so was rushed. Most of the hour was with the HR person. Will have to see as well as keep looking.
Twisting on Life's Rope Me53 W53 M20 D21 D19 D16 BD 2-2013 D final 1-2015 _________________________ "Dream about tomorrow, Live for today, Learn from yesterday"
Not a lot to report on. Like many others here I believe my ex was testing to see if I was still out there. She has resumed the non communicate stuff again. Like others I had hoped, but suspected she still had more cooking to do. So, I will once again learn my lesson and step back and continue to work on myself. I do wish that there was a rational explanation why they do this and keep doing this reaching out and then pulling back. I do notice a large amount of this happening right now on the board and suspect it may have something to do with the time of year. I always feel that by this time everyone is sick of the cold and being indoors. Maybe the MLCer just gets a bit more stir crazy than the rest of us.
On the job front I have a second interview tomorrow on this senior engineering position. If I am offered I will take the job. Deep down I think this whole experience has changed me and what I want for myself. I want to do something for myself now and want to start my own business. I know it is risky, but I will probably regret not trying. I know in the past my wife's fears held me back. I don't want to let her fears continue to define me now that we are no longer. So I see this job as an opportunity to fund me while I develop my own business.
Twisting on Life's Rope Me53 W53 M20 D21 D19 D16 BD 2-2013 D final 1-2015 _________________________ "Dream about tomorrow, Live for today, Learn from yesterday"
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
I am sitting here drinking my coffee and getting ready for my interview today. I will say that one thing that has taken a hit this past year is my confidence in myself. I don't know if this is common with the LBS who is dealing with an MLCer, but I can see it in myself. Today I am going to really have to push myself thru this and use this as part of rebuilding my confidence. I can say I have never been this unsure in my life. I think my feelings are based on how parts of my life have been out of my control for so long. I am wondering if I can work for someone else at this point or if I need to try and do something on my own. I would need a job as a short term solution to be able to fund starting my own thing anyhow. So I might look at this as a short term job to both help rebuild my confidence and to give me the room to start my own thing.
Twisting on Life's Rope Me53 W53 M20 D21 D19 D16 BD 2-2013 D final 1-2015 _________________________ "Dream about tomorrow, Live for today, Learn from yesterday"
Props to you LT on the job interview. I hear you about the whole confidence issue but to the outside world I am sure you are confident and professional. The world does not view us through the narrow lense of our marriage.
Sending you lots of good karma for a successful interview.
M:25 years at BD w/ 2 daughters BD: 5/14 Separated 6/14 - H moved cross country w/OW D Final 9/17
“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.” ― Maya Angelou
