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Originally Posted By: Jefe 11/12/14
WOW, wife called to say thank you for something I did for her today and said: "Thank you for all you did today, you definitely made my day a whole lot better."

Very nice and completely unexpected.


Again wow, I just got a random text out of the blue that said: "Thanks for all you do."


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Small positives ... just caught up on your sitch ... Jefe .. how are you detaching? Reading up I get the feel you are still completely emotionally ties to what you fill your head with, what W does, for your health you have to step back and take a breathe man .. Give it to God for a day, just focus on yourself .. start there.


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Yes, unfortunately. I get the negative thought train going and it effects my whole emotional outlook for the day. Then I get some stupid process going in a loop,and it will start to affect the way I interact with the wife on the small occasions that we communicate. Not good. I get worried about what I think I know and I get myself where I am this week. I've had maybe 10 hrs of sleep all week.

Now in my defense, this has been a really crazy week.

I am breathing today. And giving it to God.

Thank you CG.


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Just a thought Jefe, but I have found meditating helpful. I'm slowly reading 'Full Catastrophe Living by Jon Kabat-Zinn, and meditating daily at the moment. Normally in the early morning when all is quiet. He has also done some CDs, and I got one on the App Store. All very soothing, and good for shifting the focus from external - worrying about H/W/sitch - to internal....looking after you..

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I have the same issue with that negative thought train and then I can't get out of the loop. I have found myself, lately, writing things down and then ripping up the piece of paper when I am finished writing. As simple and somewhat juvenile as it sounds, it is very helpful for me. Hang in there...it will get better, eventually!


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That negaitve thinking is brutal .. Early on I can tell you it had me completely in its power, then I found things that I could do .. for me .. that made me feel alive, and good .. in a way deep down I could tell myself .. "Ya know, I will be ok regardless"

Its easy to let the WAS moods/actions effect you ... I still catch myself I can be elated if she gives me a bit .. to totally defeated if she pulls back. Truth is now .. its starting to numb. Had a good day Tuesday but I knew it was a test and she would pull back .. and yup .. no word in 2 days other than about S. I have been even keel all week though so I know I am detaching better.

Thats my point to you Jefe ... you have to become the rock, little emotion as hard as that is .. wave after wave can crash into that rock but it does not move, its stays true, she will know you are the rock if you exhibit this action, she will know deep down she can count on you. Detach, GAL, do your 180's ... these can be done without being cold, find yourself again.


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I agree with all those above. I've had a bit of a difficult week, but I don't let it get to me as much as it use to.

Say to yourself: The pain will pass. I deserve to be loved. I will be ok.

Even the highs I get when she is really being nice to me don't affect me as much as they used to. And that's good because sure enough her mood will change and she'll lash out. Without the emotional high, the emotional lows are not so extreme. Better for the soul.

I agree that meditating is very helpful - just emptying the mind of all thought.

I know it's tough at night, but you must be disciplined enough to stop thought.


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Jefe, I know you're a Christian as well. And you've read a lot on others situations as well. The common theme for a successful DB or life-after-divorce is that you just have to give her up.

I suggest you get down on your knees and give your wife over to God. If you can't do that yet, then get down on your knees and pray for strength to give her over to God. You have got to start somewhere. You're letting your obsession of your wife eat you alive. I know the feeling and it is a battle, but God WILL give you help with this IF you ask and believe.


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Wow, thanks for the out-pouring of support. That was very needed. I love all the suggestions and will start working on it tonight.

I just got back from "Man Church" tonight, I played in the worship band before the service. Very enjoyable. Good message too, Bill McCartney, founder of Promise Keepers spoke tonight. Almost was able to keep my mind busy the whole time.

Tomorrow, my mom is going to watch the girls so I can go to Kirk Cameron's new move "Saving Christmas" with my bible study group, YAY ME! A Real grown-up activity! Some times I just need something besides the Disney Channel and 6 year old conversation, you know?

And Saturday night it's band practice with my secular band, haven't been to one of those in months.

GAL in spades this weekend!

Hope, I'm working on my pre-marriage step 4 list. I have some interesting observations I made today, just curious about your thoughts.


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Did I miss your observations? I can't find them.


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