Thanks Wonka. Yeah my other friend told me that too but its not gospel till the db community chimes in lol. Yeah I am not a teenager asking permission. They are my kids, they are safe. good enough.=D
Me 42 W:35 M: 14yrs T:15yrs D: 8yrs D:6yrs S:3yrs BD: "I want a D"09/03/14 Sep: 30/06/14
Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.
So WAW is still in the "yet to be thawed" stage...in my NC breaks to exchange kids she still makes sure I know the divorce is going to happen..she doesn't look at me or hardly says any words to me...that seething anger at me.ugh. But I am too busy being " happy, upbeat, confident" as a "friendly neighbor" to let it bug me much. Working on finding work and have had some good interviews. As far as GAL goes my new obsession Gigong was outside at a park. I know! Just like them David Carradine from Kung-Fu. "Hiyaa!" My other one is weekend Kareoke (you should hear my Maroon 5 "payphone" I slaughter it but it feels so good!")
and my new favorite ultimate detaching song I will post later "Love Interrupted" by Jack Whyte.
Pressing on with DBing...pressing on...
Me 42 W:35 M: 14yrs T:15yrs D: 8yrs D:6yrs S:3yrs BD: "I want a D"09/03/14 Sep: 30/06/14
Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.
Best Detachment Song ever: Love Interruption by Jack Whyte! Play it LOUD Dbers: ..." I won't let love disrupt,erupt or interrupt me" http://youtu.be/xno5ImF2CQM
Love Interruption
I want love to roll me over slowly Stick a knife inside me and twist it all around I want love to, grab my fingers gently Slam them in the door way, put my face into the ground
I want love to, murder my own mother and Take her off to somewhere, like hell or up above And I want love to, change my friends to enemies, change my friends to enemies Show me how it's all my fault
No I won't let love disrupt, corrupt or interrupt me I won't let love disrupt, corrupt or interrupt me Yeah I won't let love disrupt, corrupt or interrupt me Anymore
I want love to walk right up and bite me Grab a hold of me and fight me, leave me dying on the ground And I want love to, split my mouth right open, cover up my ears and never let me hear a sound I want love to forget that you offended me, Or how you had defended me when everybody tore me down And I want love to, change my friends to enemies, change my friends to enemies Show me how it's all my fault
No I won't let love disrupt, corrupt or interrupt me I won't let love disrupt, corrupt or interrupt me Yeah I won't let love disrupt, corrupt or interrupt me Anymore.
Thanks to Eric K. for correcting these lyrics
Thanks to Graybeard for correcting these lyrics
Me 42 W:35 M: 14yrs T:15yrs D: 8yrs D:6yrs S:3yrs BD: "I want a D"09/03/14 Sep: 30/06/14
Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.
I found where my "home" is now in separation. Its wherever I am with my kids. These 3 weeks have been brutal...and I just don't feel at home living at my room mate's house with him...but yeah...I just figured it out. It would be an amazing home if WAW was with me too, but I am working on that outcome. GALed it today by taking the kids out to a really great river with innertubing which was so cool for us. I am still looking for work and when I was dbing and being confident with WAW at the kid exchange she mentioned some bills and then I crumpled with some guilt for not having work yet. A great directive came to me then: If you don't work, she won't look. Yeah, so I am hoping something happens soon...had some good interviews so its just beating down the doors till it happens.
Me 42 W:35 M: 14yrs T:15yrs D: 8yrs D:6yrs S:3yrs BD: "I want a D"09/03/14 Sep: 30/06/14
Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.
Ok so we traded cars/vans like we usually do when we have the kids and WAW left her hoodie in the car. I have been smelling it and holding it for the past two hours. I miss her smell, hell I miss everything. OK so now that I have allowed myself a couple hours of being Undetached it's back to work and I am going to lovk this hoodie down into the back of the trunk! Reading 5LL and actually got choked up a bunch of times how I have NOT been speaking her language at all "quality time" and "acts of service" Sure hope I get to try using the right LL with her once I can "undark" myself.
Me 42 W:35 M: 14yrs T:15yrs D: 8yrs D:6yrs S:3yrs BD: "I want a D"09/03/14 Sep: 30/06/14
Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.
well I just busted myself divorcebusting! Blah! Started talking about money and kids today during the exchange...being calm cool, collected for abut three minutes before we started arguing in whispers as the kids pretended not to see or hear anything stuck in the van seats....should have just rolled up the windows. Of course my not providing well is a big reason for her hating and not trusting..resenting me. I did get two job offers today but didn't say anything to her...gonna get my head back in the game and just quietly provide for her beyond what I used to. I was just in so much pain and was stewing a bit...told her " hope you like the revenge you are taking out on me in this separation..." and here's a classic one "well its YOUR life...you chose this(separation)...don't complain to me when its hard" FML...detach you mophead....aargh...tomorrow is a new db day
Me 42 W:35 M: 14yrs T:15yrs D: 8yrs D:6yrs S:3yrs BD: "I want a D"09/03/14 Sep: 30/06/14
Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.
What was the argument all about? Did you forget your validation techniques??!
I was just in so much pain and was stewing a bit...told her " hope you like the revenge you are taking out on me in this separation..." and here's a classic one "well its YOUR life...you chose this(separation)...don't complain to me when its hard"
It looks like you forgot your STFU bottle, eh.
Stop that silly game of tit for tat...this isn't doing any one any good and makes you look like a ornery, cranky man that repels women.
