My Happy Thread!!!

[Ggrass]

With me I got control of my dreams, when I dreamed of h verbally calling me names etc, I punched his lights out. I thought bout turning them while awake, the what happened was I could while asleep.

Then I gradually made it in the dreams so he never had the upper hand, and now they have stopped. I worked ways to step around his arguments. It worked.

[tadpole1025]

Thanks MrBond and Ggrass.

The last two nights have been better. No dreams at all, or atleast, I don't remember them.

I received a knock on the door this morning and it was UPS. I dread when they come to the door because it is usually bad news. They had an envelope for me from my former employer in radio.

It turns out that I still own 28 shares of CBS stock! Hahaha. I called this afternoon and sold them puppies! Usually I wouldn't have, but I need the money. It will help me stay floating until I get my first paycheck from my new job.

Yay!!!

Thank God.

Tad

[MrBond]

Do you see how the blessings come?

[Delboy]

Hi Tad, I'm glad to hear things are starting to pick up in your life. 'Always Look On The Bright Side Of Life'

Below is something you might like

Love
Delboy



HOW TO INSTALL LOVE


Tech Support: Yes, ... how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install
Love. Can you guide me though the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What
do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located
your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is
it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running?

Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and
Resentment running right now

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from
your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent
memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will
eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called
High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge
and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly
installed. Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke
Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and
Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that
normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program.
You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the
upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error -
Program will not run on external components." What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up
to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart.
In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself
before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following
files: Forgive-Self; Realise Your Worth; and Acknowledge your
Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system
will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty
programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from
all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is
completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile
is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying
themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually
everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and
running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure
to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will
in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to
you.

Customer: Thank you.

[tadpole1025]

MrBond - I'm starting to see it. I've been a little slow in that department, but I'm getting there.

Delboy - Nice post and very true.



Updating:

The last few nights have been dream-free. I'm glad about that.

I heard from my new job today. They told me to hang in there and will be making an official offer by Wednesday. She told me that it is a long process, but they are getting close. Long process? No kidding. I've been trying to get hired there since the end of May. But....I guess another week won't matter much. I'm really anxious to get started though. S21 told me he thinks that this job may be exactly what I need. I agree. I'm going to give it 100% and hopefully spend many years there.

This evening, we had our first Haboob (dust storm) of our Summer Monsoon season. Weather here in the desert is weird. We get the majority of our rain and bad weather during the summer. I've always been a weather nut. I like the rain, wind, thunder and lightning. XW always hated that about me because I would like to sit outside and watch. She complained every time I'd want to go out and enjoy the weather. I realized tonight that there are advantages to this whole "sitch" thing. I sat outside and didn't have to hear her complain or have to worry if she was going to yell at me to come in. Haha.

An advantage of living here in Phoenix is the fact that we can go swimming late at night without freezing to death so I've been taking a lot of late-night swims. Sometimes one or two of the boys will join me, but it is mostly just me. I've been enjoying them because it gets me out of the apartment and gives me a little time to clear my mind, think and look at the stars.

That's all for now....

Tad

[AJM]

What? New memories?? Is that 'normal' ?

Glad to hear about the job and the positive momentum, Tad. Very happy for the new chance!


AJ

[Wet]

Delbuy,

I really liked your "How to Install Love" story.
I'm keeping it.

But do you bring up "Always look on the bright side of life" with a quirky smile on your face? You do realize they are singing this song (Monty Python movie) while they are being crucified? (grin!)

[tadpole1025]

Journaling:

My happy thread isn't really happy at the moment.

The proceeds from the stocks I sold last week were supposed to be here today. They never came. They were supposed to be delivered Fed Express. When I called to see what was going on, they told me somebody goofed and sent it regular mail. Now it is going to be another week all because of some idiot's mistake. It seems like that is all I do anymore...Pay for other people's garbage. I make enough mistake's on my own. I don't need to pay for other people's too.

My new job? Still no start date. Seems like every week, I get told it is going to be another week. They've done well in keeping me posted but......I'm tired of waiting. That's all I seem to do.....wait wait wait.

I'm tired of waiting. I feel like I can finally get my life in order but.....WAIT.

One more week. One more week. One more week. If its about the job, ONE MORE WEEK. If it's about my money, ONE MORE WEEK.

ONE MORE WEEK.

I'm really tired of waiting and I can't afford to wait ONE MORE WEEK.

So damn frustrating.

No gas in my car, late on the rent, no food in the house all because I've been waiting ONE MORE WEEK.

I can't wait ONE MORE WEEK.

Sometimes I feel like I am in a movie or computer game and some a$$hole is getting enjoyment out of watching me squirm. When things seem to be going better, I get more dogsh!t thrown at me.

I've been making a list of what I want my life to look like, but keep getting crap thrown at me to delay it ONE MORE WEEK.

Really p!ssed, disgusted, discouraged, tired....

What a joke.

Tad

[MrBond]

Sorry to hear that.

One thing you really need to do is to start learning how to cope with things in a more healthy way.

I get the frustration and the anger. But, you know what? Life's full of frustrating situations. You can cope with them better. It won't do your health or well-being any good by just lashing out all the time.

[tadpole1025]

Yeah. It just gets to be really frustrating sometimes. It's almost comical.

UPDATE:

FINALLY!!!!

Got a start date for my new job. I was starting to get a little worried. But.....they finally called today. I will be starting on 7/21. That's a week from this coming Monday.

It has all of the benefits that I need and an awesome 401k plan. Maybe, just maybe I'll be able to start saving again. I've blown through everything that I had when this all started so hopefully I can start to rebuild.

The job even pays a little more than what I was originally told.

Hopefully, this will be the start of finally getting things together.

Tad