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Okay, stupid question, and I think I already know the answer/comments I'm going to get on this.
H got me a book a few years ago. It's kind of a coffee table book type of book. I looked through it and that's about the use I had for it. I looked online and it actually retails for an amount that would make it worth selling (I've sold a lot of used books in the past). It was good to leave on the table so people could look at when they came over but other than that I don't really have much use for it.
The question is - am I a jerk for selling it? IF H noticed that I was selling it (and that's a big IF), he'd (mindreading) likely be pretty hurt and I (codependent) actually had a little pang in my heart when I thought about that. He was pretty proud about that book when he got it for me. But, I could use the cash and I'm always a fan of de-cluttering.
I have sold a few books on Amazon so I would recommend you go on there and see what it sells for used. I have had some pretty nice books and go on there and find out they sell for 10 cents plus $3.99 postage. So it would check first to see if it would be worth the worry.
It's hard to say how it will go over. For me when I saw that she had taken the family frame and removed all the photos of me and my kids I felt pretty low. It is just a thing and if it would help you out then surely he would understand.
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IMO in the stage he's in, he probably won't notice it. If he does he might take it as a sign that you've moved on and you're not that emotionally attached. When I was a WAW that's how I would have seen it whether I would have been hurt or thought good he's moving on..i don't know.
Thanks LIO. I don't think it's something I would need to buy again.
I think my reticence comes from a place that H used to bring me little gifts here and there and I wasn't always the best at accepting them (he has terrible taste in jewelry on his own). In my family we are very direct with our desired "gifts" (makes it easier around the holidays). I always feel very guilty if someone gets me something that I don't love or can't use because I feel terrible that they spent their hard-earned money on it (wow I guess that comes across as absurdly co-dependent... never realized that one before). As recently as my birthday this year, before BD, H got me a few things and seemed really nervous that I wouldn't like them. I made an effort to show that I did because I wanted him to know that I appreciated his thoughtfulness, even if they weren't necessarily things that I would have wanted for myself. All of this said gift giving isn't his primary LL (based on the quiz) but it's probably his third and still a fairly strong one.
Okay - so that was the context of that, anyway. So, in light of that, I was concerned that selling the book might be invalidating a LL gesture. Overanalyzing? I'm not even so sure what I'm supposed to be doing w/r/t his LLs anymore (primary is physical, obviously not meeting that, second is words of affirmation, have been doing that a little with things around the house that he does).
Last night he was on his way out to meet a friend for a drink and I was getting ready to GAL myself. He asked "Are you coming back tonight?" - 2nd night in a row I've gotten that. I guess he's noticed my GAL and the fact that I went out of town without telling him (on a weekend that he was also out of town). Interesting he keeps asking this since I asked it of him a few weekends ago when he was already out really late to know whether I could use the extra security lock on the door.
He also baked a fruit crisp last night. Before our GALs he'd said he could alter the recipe so that I could eat it, I said he didn't have to do that. When I got back, he'd made the crisp, and weirdly said something very loudly like "you can at least eat part of it!!" And I just looked at him because I was confused and then he said "Oh... I guess you can't. What am I saying?"
^^Having said all of that, I just thought that I could maybe think of it like this - selling the book would give me enough to pay for at least (and likely more than) 1 hour of my attorney's time. Hmm...
I think to wait on selling the book until you are sure how you feel about it either way. No need to make a decision that you are not yet fully comfortable with. You can always sell it later. But if you sell it now and don't feel right about it it will eat at you.
Fruit crisps, fajitas and laundry.... Hmmm..starting to sound like the title of a good book/ movie ( a la eat, pray and love!) ;-)
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Today he asked if I wanted to make a special dish of ours with him this weekend and then I could have the leftovers while he's traveling this week (he's out of town for 12 days straight starting Monday, with a weekend trip to the place where possible/likely OW candidate lives). I tried to make a joke and told him that if he wanted it he could just say that instead of framing it as a way for me to get leftovers. He outlined his schedule for tomorrow and I said I wasn't sure when I'd be around, and he said "Well, I guess I could just make it myself. I'm sure you wouldn't have a problem with that!" I said that I couldn't complain.
He also said he'd been trying to keep up with the laundry and dishes. I said he'd been doing a good job with the dishes and cleaning the kitchen.
He also asked if I'd gone to a movie last night (my movie candy boxes were still out on the dining room table) and asked how it was. I pointed out some issues I had with the movie plot and he said that he was proud of me as a "scientist" for noticing things like that (he's a science guy, I am not). That was kind of odd.
Have some more GAL scheduled this afternoon and tonight and a little bit tomorrow. I also really need to clean up a little - I've been so busy with gym and GAL that I haven't gotten around to it.
I took his stuff out of one of my dresser drawers; if he asks, I'm going to tell him that I need the space.