Free, Free, Set Them Free

[needgrace]

I would say look at why you think that upset you or threw you for a loop. Wasn't it you that told me it's usually got something to do with what you fear? What is it about that moment that upset you what fear is it connected to and how can you heal that?

Great question Brit.

[needgrace]

hi bug, sounds like classic pema. you met your shaky place with openness and compassion.. for you and others

[labug]

Thanks everyone for the response.
Brit, i'm still thinking about your question but I've had a killer day.

I went to IC today and finally faced some of my issues with S19 and his illness.

I felt much better when I left but came home and slept all afternoon and could go back to sleep right now. I didn't realize how much stress I was carrying around relating to that.

Tomorrow, friends.

[sayitaintso]

Glad you feel better Bug. Hope your s19 is doing ok.

[zig]

your mind does a lot of self healing while you sleep, so i hope you slept well and while you were sleeping you worked through some of the stuff with your s

what you said about realizing how much you were carrying about your s - resonates with me - that;s what my release was about too, today - just letting go of the burden, not literally, but in my mind for myself

glad to hear you allowed yourself to nap and take more rest - it's the best thing after an emotional release.

take care bug - the way you work through your stuff, is a great guidance for me as i work through mine. can't help thinking how "self-regulated' you are, as my IC would say

zig

[Brit45]

I felt much better when I left but came home and slept all afternoon and could go back to sleep right now. I didn't realize how much stress I was carrying around relating to that.

So much is surfacing it's no surprise that you're tired. It's a sign of your strength that you're dealing with everything. So many people walk around pushing things down.

[vera be fierce]

(( )) hope you slept well.

[zig]

labug

just got Melody Beatties -meditation book. thanks so much for suggesting it.

read the first week this morning - i like it - a lot . of course it starts with acknowledging and appreciating the journey - before one can take any steps one has to be in sync with where they are.

hope you're well this morning

zig

[labug]

Thanks everyone, I did sleep well last night. I noticed several times during my appt yesterday that my whole body was tense, and I had to work on relaxing. But I did gain some insight.

I feel hopeful today and grateful that what we're faced with is what it is. It could be so much worse.

What you resist, persists.~Jung

[labug]

I would say look at why you think that upset you or threw you for a loop. Wasn't it you that told me it's usually got something to do with what you fear? What is it about that moment that upset you what fear is it connected to and how can you heal that?

Great question Brit.

I think it threw me because in my mind, I see him going through his daily life not thinking of me much at all and if he does, it's in a negative light. However, I know he would never say anything negative about me to others, most especially not to mutual friends.

This opened up a different possibility. Compounded by the fact that as we've seen each other more over the last couple of months, all of our interactions have been positive. Maybe not so much positive as neutral. There have been no harsh words since the month following the bomb. He still wears his wedding ring, there is no OW.

Yep, expectations set in and I have to let that go.

He's walking his path and I'm walking mine. And I'm actually happy right now.