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H has been tinkering in the garage with woodwork- I'm actually glad he's found an outlet for his energy. HOWEVER- I found a ring that he crafted. It was small enough to fit my finger. That night I also found a matching man's ring (it was bigger and wider). I didn't go into the garage snooping- but all his projects were laid out on the workbench and I was impressed with them.
(I couldn't hold my mouth shut) when I asked him about them, I got some BS about selling them online- and when I told him to stop lying to me, he admitted that he would like to give it to OW, but he's not ready for that step yet (as if that was supposed to make me feel better.) After an hour talking, I cried like I haven't done since the bomb. I even hid in my car b/c it's the only place he wouldn't be able to hear me.
Other things I heard in our talk: - Love is not a choice, and you can never convince me otherwise. - We had a relationship, now it's done- that should be the end of it. - People are capable of change, but there are certain things that you will never be able to change and those are what will keep me from loving you again. (when I said that these things obviously didn't matter 9 years ago) he said: "I was wrong 9 years ago." - Moving on is easier with someone next to you .(I asked why he couldn't even try to heal/ find his happiness alone) He said he shouldn't have to of there's something available.
So with all of this rolling around in my head all night, I'm coming to the conclusion that I need to just give up. This guy has been gone for a while and I was to stupid to realize that there is nothing I can do about it.
I just can't see that someone would ever have a change of heart after all this. In only 5 months he has: gotten a lawyer, drawn up separation papers, changed his Will, moved out, made matching rings for himself and OW, an is willing to break the rules to keep up communication with her.
M-31, H-31 T-9, M-7 S-6, s-20mth sep 8/1/11 ILYNILWY 11/29/11 Creating separation papers. Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12 H moves out 1.20.12
Purgatory- Sorry to hear you are in this place. I also have really young children and I am shocked and hurt, for myself somewhat but really for them more than anything. He says a lot of the same things my husband does, and it hurts. I don't have any great advice but that I am thinking of you and I know how sad you must feel. When I feel really bad I wipe away my tears and cuddle with my kids:)
M 37, H 37 M 10, T 12 S 4 D 2 3/14/12 ILYBNILWY 4/2/12 H consults a L, files nothing 4/26/12 H moves to his new place
And when I don't see any, I decide I will have to settle for closure - i.e. being done with what I should recognise as a hopeless situation.
BUT... then I remember that DB says don't lose hope.
yes exactly - after i heard mil say today that she had given up hope, i lost hope - then i sat and read LRT in the DR book and i am filled with hope again. are we fooling ourselves or is it a combo of having faith,letting go and moving forward
this is the real pain we feel isn't it?
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
I am so sorry to read this. Sounds like your H is living in the fantasy world instead of the real world like mine. One day they will wake up and realized how foolish they were. Perhaps by then it will be too late.
AT BD: WH 41, J 43; Bomb 2/5/2012 Two kids, one dog D Final 6/18/14 "No matter where you go, there you are"