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#2233247 - 03/26/12 01:49 AM Re: Moving right along [Re: Starsky309]
mindfull Offline
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Registered: 11/28/08
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Autumn.

That's actually pretty funny about the neighbors joke. Timing!!! Ugh!!!

You are holding steady and strong.

Loved your reply to the "card". Perfection.
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Me-46, D-21, S15, S13

After many years w/my head in the sand...
I FILED
Divorced 6/2011

The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.

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#2233627 - 03/27/12 12:47 PM Re: Moving right along [Re: mindfull]
Autumn Leaves Offline
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Loc: Pennsylvania
Checking in and some updates:

Sunday evening we had some nice open conversations, some enjoyable time together and although I hoped to never do it, I backslid a bit. It was so familiar. He returned from his trip with a hand written card expressing his apologies, that I am a good person and don't deserve this treatment, and he hopes that some day I can forgive him.

Monday morning we had a discussion that I appreciate the card and the time we spent together on Sunday evening but that it doesn't change anything. He said he understood and doesn't blame me, but he also doesn't regret anything.

I was home sick yesterday, and out of communication mostly. He was emailing and texting like crazy, which was tough as I was trying to re-establish my boundaries and remain dark.

Last night he took the kids to his moms for her bday, and I stayed home to get my head on straight. He came home quickly and it felt like he was trying to fall back into past behavior (whether he intended to or not)

This morning he was doing the same, in actions and conversations. I felt myself tensing up and realizing this was a dangerous and slippery slope. I needed to get my footing and go very dark. He felt it happening and kept asking "what is wrong" even though I had already explained that nothing had changed and I was still figuring out my future and the boys future.

I mentioned this morning that we should really consider finding a MC sooner rather than later. In my mind, it can be beneficial no matter what happens. We have already agreed that we have 20 plus years and need to coparent amicably.

He said that he is open to MC but doesn't want to give up his IC. I said "i would never want you to"

S17 is home sick today so I am juggling slightly, but I need to get my head together again. I was doing so well and one minor slip really messed with my head.
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#2233746 - 03/27/12 09:01 PM Re: Moving right along [Re: Autumn Leaves]
Autumn Leaves Offline
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Registered: 11/01/11
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Having a down day and trying very hard to keep my footing. I need to shake off the pity party, recognize this for what it is and continue to move forward. Some days are just tougher than others. I think I will take some time and respond to others for a bit. Sometimes giving back is the most helpful thing I can do for myself, and takes my mind off of things.
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#2233747 - 03/27/12 09:05 PM Re: Moving right along [Re: Autumn Leaves]
YankeeCandle Offline
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Hi Autumn Leaves, I had one of those days yesterday. Just hold on to your hat because tomorrow is another day smile Yes, I find helping others really very helpful on down days too.

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#2233748 - 03/27/12 09:07 PM Re: Moving right along [Re: Autumn Leaves]
Starsky309 Offline
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I think that's a GREAT idea, Autumn. I always do better when I'm helping someone else.

Also, GIVE YOURSELF PERMISSION to have a bad day. Sometimes, people throw so many "You're doing GREAT!"s and "You are SO STRONG!"s at you, that you begin to think you're impervious to the incredible emotional strain you're under right now.

Starsky
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At the end of every hard-earned day, people gotta find some reason to believe. (Bruce Springsteen)

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#2233889 - 03/28/12 12:15 PM Re: Moving right along [Re: Starsky309]
mindfull Offline
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Autumn. Good Morning.

I hope your evening was better than your day.

One slip up in all of this strength. Pffftttt. No big.

Pity party it up. ( I remember allowing myself to have one, but only allowed it for 30 min).

Then, dust off and move the heck on!!!
_________________________
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13

After many years w/my head in the sand...
I FILED
Divorced 6/2011

The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.

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#2233892 - 03/28/12 12:30 PM Re: Moving right along [Re: mindfull]
Autumn Leaves Offline
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Registered: 11/01/11
Posts: 568
Loc: Pennsylvania
Good morning!! Thank you for your message last night MF, it did make me laugh smile

I feel stronger this morning and feel like I am getting my focus back again. I am glad to have that behind me now, and hope the down days are further between. I much prefer the good days smile

H has still been on his best behavior still. Yesterday he was getting frustrated with me that I wasn't answering his calls and only answering important texts. He made a comment "you are ignoring me" and I simply responded "i have been so busy" and moved on.

He's making it so incredibly hard to remain dark. I almost feel like I need to have a talk with him about boundaries. He says that he knows what he did was incredibly wrong, and he hopes that someday I can forgive him. He isn't looking for a quick/simple fix. But then he wants to act like everything is ok, and I think he is hoping that eventually I will just fall in line and be ok.

I'm not mind reading, this has been our pattern for years, sadly.
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#2233902 - 03/28/12 12:58 PM Re: Moving right along [Re: Autumn Leaves]
mindfull Offline
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Autumn.

When he barrages you w/txt's and emails... A constant reminder...

"I asked you for space. Please respect my request. "

"I'm not ignoring you. I'm attempting to distance myself from you. Please respect my request to give me space. "

Or..

"Listen, you lying/cheating bastard. Back the hell off!". (LoL)

Glad you're better this am.

How's S17?!?!
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Me-46, D-21, S15, S13

After many years w/my head in the sand...
I FILED
Divorced 6/2011

The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.

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#2233905 - 03/28/12 01:04 PM Re: Moving right along [Re: mindfull]
Autumn Leaves Offline
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Registered: 11/01/11
Posts: 568
Loc: Pennsylvania
Haha! Ok that had me laughing, thanks smile

S17 is much better today. He actually went to work last night and is back in school today. It had to be a 24 hour bug, because I was better that quickly also. Thankfully S15 is healthy so far. He's not home enough to share the germs smile
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-Autumn


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#2233919 - 03/28/12 01:42 PM Re: Moving right along [Re: mindfull]
Starsky309 Offline
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Registered: 10/11/10
Posts: 5055
Loc: Florida
Originally Posted By: mindfull
Autumn.

When he barrages you w/txt's and emails... A constant reminder...

"I asked you for space. Please respect my request. "

"I'm not ignoring you. I'm attempting to distance myself from you. Please respect my request to give me space. "

Or..

"Listen, you lying/cheating bastard. Back the hell off!". (LoL)

Glad you're better this am.

How's S17?!?!



2 out of 3 of these are perfect. smirk


Oh, and probably necessary.


Starsky
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At the end of every hard-earned day, people gotta find some reason to believe. (Bruce Springsteen)

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