Wow....thanks, friends. Truly....thank you. He is fully emeshed and my fear of comment about good job renting truck has me scurrying in full freak out mode that she is coming down to my town....obviously I am not detached. Labug-it is exactly like a drug. Wow....thanks for sharing. Mishka, journalling like mad AND drinking beer! Making list of personal limbo goals. Accuray, you are THE best for advising. It DOES a number on us-absolutely. Thank you. Will talk more later when in the States.
Me: 44 H: 45 Married 22 S 18, S 16 Bomb 8/11, Second Bomb 1/12
Hello friends! Yes, I am home again and emotionally exhausted. It is so difficult to see my brother choosing to live so far from family. Alas, he is an artist. The boys and I had an amazing time. Berlin is quite a city. Wow....
Well, I have seen my husband every day since our return. He has shown up to offer help around the house or do something for us each day. He leaves tonight on another trip.
Last night he brought by something from my back and offered to go to the store for me. He did, came home, fixed dinner and we watched the NCAA tournament for a few hours. Weird. Light conversation. No R talk or anything else.
We did discuss the lake time this summer. He is talking about it with words like "we" and "us."
I am trying very hard not to obsess about OW and trying to get my house/life together. I think the main problem is that I do not like to spend time alone. I finished the Codependent No More book. My plan is to go back through and reread each chapter and write out all the exercises.
Spring is here in Georgia so it is exciting to be able to sit on my pretty porch and watch the birds.
How do you make "time your friend" if you don't like being alone, don't like the quiet. I am afraid I am a drama addict!!! What do I want to work on for myself. I am still trying to get to the bottom of that and journaling and making lists of goals.
Ah...off to the high school for meeting with H and guidance department about S16's schedule next year.
Missed all of you!!!!
Me: 44 H: 45 Married 22 S 18, S 16 Bomb 8/11, Second Bomb 1/12
I'm glad to hear that you are having positive interactions with your H and that you had a wonderful time. I, too, need to learn to like to be myself. I have tried to do things for myself (have picked up a dance class and am reading more), but it's just not the same.
M: 27 H: 28 T: 8 yrs M: 6 yrs Sep: 2/18/12 (I have no feelings for you!) EA/PA Uncovered: 2/26/12 H introduces OW to his fam: June H moves ALL stuff out: July
