Just got back from the Chi Center and OMG it was amazing. He is teaching me this EPT tapping technique. Getting at the root cause of my anxiety and my childhood stuff. I am taking a 5 hour class on it in 2 weeks. It was liberating and highly suggest it for anyone struggling with anxiety.
Tiny change of events. W asked told me she is "Ok with it" if I want to goto family party. I said what was important is that she have fun and be comfortable with it. She said "I'm ok with it". I accepted the invite although hesistant. She set that boundary and then retracted. I do think her mother guilted her into it. either way I will go and not pay attention to her. She would also have had to answer alot of questions if I wasnt there. So maybe easier for her in that aspect. 60 degrees> have kids overnight. No anxiety today. Went to gym. At lots of fruit. Life is good
The opportunity is simple. Go and have fun. Interact like nothing is going on. Be myself. Be funny like I always am. Enjoy her relatives and friends. Enjoy my kids. Be friendly and friends with her. Take the focus off her. Just simply enjoy the night.
Mach1 here is the difference from a week ago. I can do it with a smile on my face. I will do it with a smile on my face. I feel great. I've accepted everything you guys have been saying and my Chi counselor today really drove the point home of taking care of myself and that I will be ok no matter what happens.
She was miserable to me today on kid pickup. Didn't bother me. Enjoying the kids. Worked out like a nut today.
A 180 would be doing it with a smile on my face actually. Up to this point I wasn't or it was painful. She already running around with her rings off and wanting to date. I've accepted it. Im a good person and I will find someone else that makes me happy if this dissolves or start a new marriage with her one day.
I can't wait for the party. I'm going out and buying all new clothes. Ive lost 12 lbs the last month and should look pretty decent :0)
Well. When she calls to say goodnight to the kids she has zero interest in talking to me afterwards. Stings a little but oh well. I've never met someone as miserable as her. Honestly. Starting to get comical how miserable she is. I'm starting to not even want to go to this family party at all.
