I live to give my wife shoulder rubs and back rubs. I could describe every mole, freckle or otherwise. I miss her. Treasure those memories for now, God willing, soon she will to. And miss making them with you. Tonight, I had a crisis of belief in what I'm doing with my life right now. I was working (getting in a lot of overtime this week) and I just started to crumble. I went on break and went out to the parking lot and cried to the Lord for some hope. After break I went to my machine (I work in a machine shop, if it's made of metal, we can make it) and turned up the radio. This usually doesn't help as all we can get is a country station. I like country but not right now, (quickest way to want to put a gun in your mouth ) Anyway it was actually playing good upbeat music and helped my night go quicker and brought out my hope. Helps that I was working alone tonight and could turn it up all the way and sing as loud as I wanted to. Btw, It's a little gross, but we'll let it slide.
M-34 W-31 2 S,11&11 1 D, 6 T 13 YEARS M 12 YEARS ILYBINILWY OCT. 2009 We are too close. All we see are smears of paint. The Lord sees the masterpiece He is painting.
Before all "this", I used to listen to people talk like that and think it was all hot air, especially when their world was falling apart. Then I realized that even if it is hot air, you can fake it till you make it. The end result is worth it.
Hang in there Man, you'll be just fine, but I think you already know that, now.
Me:29 SAHD civ milspouse WAW:29 Active Military, deployed till Dec 2010 2 children: S5&S3 Bomb 8,8,2010 DDay 8,15,2010 R talk Oct 18th NC sent Oct 19 In recovery?
And You can fake it till you make it. But I'm going to remake it till I make it. Meaning remake myself the way I always wanted me to be. Thats the best thing about my situation: on that note she is right. I'm not the man I set out to be. And I don't like who I became. So, no matter what happens, I have to like me. So I'm gonna go be the man I always wanted to be. I hope she falls in love with him. If not, at least I can stand to be with me. :-)
M-34 W-31 2 S,11&11 1 D, 6 T 13 YEARS M 12 YEARS ILYBINILWY OCT. 2009 We are too close. All we see are smears of paint. The Lord sees the masterpiece He is painting.
M-34 W-31 2 S,11&11 1 D, 6 T 13 YEARS M 12 YEARS ILYBINILWY OCT. 2009 We are too close. All we see are smears of paint. The Lord sees the masterpiece He is painting.
That's ok. I was in the Marines when we got married. Back in the day.
Me:29 SAHD civ milspouse WAW:29 Active Military, deployed till Dec 2010 2 children: S5&S3 Bomb 8,8,2010 DDay 8,15,2010 R talk Oct 18th NC sent Oct 19 In recovery?
My little brother was a Marine. Still hard for me to say or type that. My "little brother", the Marine.
M-34 W-31 2 S,11&11 1 D, 6 T 13 YEARS M 12 YEARS ILYBINILWY OCT. 2009 We are too close. All we see are smears of paint. The Lord sees the masterpiece He is painting.
My wife and still play the same games. It may seem dumb, but we play word games. It usually starts by accident. I'll say a word like: solution. She would respond with a word that ended in -tion as well. And the game would continue. I love that game. She has an amazing vocabulary.
M-34 W-31 2 S,11&11 1 D, 6 T 13 YEARS M 12 YEARS ILYBINILWY OCT. 2009 We are too close. All we see are smears of paint. The Lord sees the masterpiece He is painting.
My wife sent me a 4 page text last night. It was about how sad it is and how she knows how I hurt. I was very touched. It was very hard not to tell her I love her. Just kept telling myself, thats not what she wants and it won't help the situation. The ray of hope is that she says she gets sad about the relationship when things are going well. Good thing I was at work, I prolly would have done something stupid and drove over and said something even stupider. Definitely the Hardest thing I've ever done.
M-34 W-31 2 S,11&11 1 D, 6 T 13 YEARS M 12 YEARS ILYBINILWY OCT. 2009 We are too close. All we see are smears of paint. The Lord sees the masterpiece He is painting.
Spent the evening there tonight. Man, I love her so. All we did was smile and chat (still in friend mode). I miss being with her. She truly completes me (Damn, I hate cliche`s). At least she doesn't yell about how much she hates me anymore. I will be a success story on here. Faith and Hope get me thru the days and especially the nights.
M-34 W-31 2 S,11&11 1 D, 6 T 13 YEARS M 12 YEARS ILYBINILWY OCT. 2009 We are too close. All we see are smears of paint. The Lord sees the masterpiece He is painting.
I am there with you Roy.It is hard when she is nice to you but you can't feel the love, she wants to be friends because of the children but nothing else, and if you step over the line, she will change her attitude in a second.
Me 39 W 37 S 5 D 2.75 Married 12 years Together 14 years Bomb Dropped 08/16/10
) Anyway it was actually playing good upbeat music and helped my night go quicker and brought out my hope. Helps that I was working alone tonight and could turn it up all the way and sing as loud as I wanted to. Btw, It's a little gross, but we'll let it slide.