Thanks Dia

will post detailed response in my thread.

See, that and a cuddle is all I need.

Just emailed H that we are not taking him to the airport this weekend. We'll see how that flies.

Support needed here. Thx.

Good call. We're with you

A&K, I know this stuff is hard. Your sitch is way tougher than anything I'm going through. You're amazing for your courage, perseverance and determination.

I keep going around and around about the complexity and variables and details and issues you're dealing with and I keep coming back to the same place. Are there some big decisions, plans or guiding principles you can put in place for yourself to simplify things a bit? I feel like you're just fighting endless battles and its just impossible to do that without killing yourself.

Shocking. He no likey. Oh well.

Well, I'm getting some things going. Staying in current house for a while because landlord reduced the rent. Not optimal in all ways but better for kiddos and gives me more time to assess what I want.

Have a meeting Friday about starting a class that will be immersive, creative and have me surrounded by artists who all have their sh*t together (hoping they'll make an exception for me )

Writing a LOT...which feels awesome.

Gotta make some money but hoping that will manifest soon.

H is looking like he'll be booking some big gigs soon so that'll mean more por moi and seeing as he's kept the hanky panky going and his married status I'll be entitled. So maybe limbo will serve me in one positive way.

Can't over think...just staying afloat.

I concur.

S7 just left me a message crying hysterically that he doesn't feel safe and wants to come home.

How the f do I handle it?

He doesn't mean safe as in physically (H is great with them)...he means insecure.

Call over there and talk to your son. Base any further actions on your conversation with him.