I'm going to my parents house tomorrow for the weekend. My B'day is Friday. I'm going to get a massage tomorrow afternoon & my Mom is making me a cake. I've requested a Pineapple Dream Cake, never had it before but it sounded good.
I actually plan to go to church on Friday & Saturday, they are having a special meeting so maybe it will help me.
The enemy is attacking tonight, I just get so scared when I think I might not ever see him again!
I'm going to go to that prayer closet!!!
Morning: I did go to my prayer closet last night & I felt some better. I'm pretty down today. I know he is not the same man as the one I married. But I also know that for OW's b'day he treated her very special, so that was the man that used to treat me special for my b'day or special days.
I'm going to my parents house today. I won't get to post like I normally do but I will be checking in.
Hang in ..it will get easier I know it must be difficult not seeing H I remember when my H first left, I thought I was so relieved that he would be back to visit the kids
I have heard they always look back..you make the changes anyway GAL PMA there will come a time he will see the changes.. no matter what happens, you will be ok You have great courage and strengh and God is by your side peace
married 14 years H 42 bomb 2/07 IDLYA D final 3 /09 M ow
If you get a chance, go read today's Charlyne Cares.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
((((((Nlt)))))) I wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday tomorrow - as I mentioned before it's also my dad's birthday. It's good you'll be busy tomorrow - try not to think about H too much but focus on enjoying the day. The massage sounds so relaxing and the cake sounds delicious. ENJOY!!!!
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz
Thank you all so much for the birthday wishes!!!! I was so surprised to get on here & find so many!!! You are all so wonderful!!!
I got a weird phone call tonight from my H's brother. My H has a bed stored at my parents house that he made, he also has some cabinets that someone gave him he was going to use to make a work shop one day & was storing them also. We didn't use the bed b/c it was one that him & his first wife used & I really didn't want it & he didn't either but he wanted to keep it in case his son wanted it. So his son & BIL was supposed to come & get it a couple of months ago but they never could get together. My BIL said H's son is not coming but he is going to come next week to get the bed & cabinets, I have already told my H that my parents were going to keep the cabinets but BIL didn't know that (I hope that doesn't cause problems between H & I). Anyway, he was really friendly with me. My SIL told me that he would try to advice my H during the D & tell him not to let me have the house or alimony b/c I didn't deserve it. So my BIL is always friendly but the day they helped move my H out of the house he was friendly but not like usual. Tonight he talked to me about 20 minutes, told me about their dogs, cats & horses. He also said they have a new email address & wanted to give that to me (I didn't have their old one). You will be proud of me, I wanted to ask about my H so bad but I didn't, I came really close but I didn't. I hope this was a good sign that he wanted me to have their email address. I'm just not sure what that was all about. What do you think?? Maybe he was just being BIL, I'm just not sure.
Thank you all again so much!!!! What wonderful friends I have on here!!!!!!