Hi girls, oh, we are all on at the same time! I have been a little down today. Its been the most beautiful day so I was at the beach again.. amongst all those young couples (seems half the college was at the beach today). I feel cheated. It was a big deal to move here together and I cant share it with him. I was with people today, but they are going home for the summer next week (apart from my best mate and his W). I was alone all day yesterday. I feel like I am missing the chance to enjoy a summer in Cornwall with him, again. Last year we had a lot of visitors back to back, but then he started to withdraw around June anyway.
I was hoping he'd call after work to say he'd bring my wheel over and we could go out for a ride, but he probably wont. Hopefully he will phone 8-ish for a chat about his weekend anyway.
I think everyone reading my sitch lately thinks I am "home and dry" and we are nearly back together, but I dont see that at all. The fact that he said last weekend "I dont want to mess you around" and then this weekend, didnt bother to even get me to meet him and his Mum for a couple of hours, eventhough they were twice just 10 minutes from my house... well, it all says to me that he still doesnt want me back. I feel so sad! I went and bought a new cotton dress today...it fits well, but I'm not sure it would get him going. I dont feel capable of getting him going anymore. He seems immune to me in that way! Must try harder...
Sorry guys. Normal service will be resumed...
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
Sorry to hear it's a bit of a rough day for you right now. Remember the "zooming out" idea for this...I think that's what people are seeing in terms of the change and evolution of the R. between you and BF on the thread. When looking at the bigger picture, it really is hard to make a case for things getting more distant between you two over the last several months!
I think the stuff about his Mum's visit could be explained by a whole host of other factors that are not about you at all, so I wouldn't be overly investing worry on that point. I know you feel frustrated about wanting to get stage 3 cracking...totally understandable! And seeing couples out at the beach, well I know how that can be really crap to see...it can feel very lonely. But you are doing okay even though you feel very up and down! BF is doing his thing...wasn't he even introducing you as his GF recently? : ) Deep breathing is good, he will text or call!
