180=stopping sex -- Now how to start again? - 01/12/10 10:22 PM
I have an SSM. I am the HD and my wife of 38 years is the LD partner. Her rejection of me felt so bad several months ago that I told her I would not have MR with her anymore until she showed me that she really wanted to make love to me. That was my first 180.
My LD wife just shrugged it off. For about two months I periodically told her that I would make love to her if she would do something (model some new clothes for me, wear something sexy to bed, massage my back, etc.)to show me that she wanted to make love to me. She refused to do anything. At the end of October, I told her that I needed to be touched. She told me that she doesn't touch me, because of fear that it will lead to sex. I told her that I could cure that. I then said that I was not going to have sex with her for any reason until January of 2010, no matter what she did or how she touched me. (My second 180)
I think that I may have finally gotten her attention and she has asked when we might start being intimate again. I have said that I will not be intimate with her until we have talked about our relationship and what it entails to be in a married sexual relationship.
It will have been 5 months since we have had sex quite soon. If she is serious about renewing our sexual relationship, I am uncertain of how to proceed. Actually, as an HD person, I am for the first time afraid of having sex and being so vulnerable. Part of me wants to tell her that.
I am wondering if we should start slowly by just having foreplay for a week and then move up to "outercourse" or mutual manual stimulation for a second week prior to again trying to have intercourse. One the one hand having been married to her for 38 years makes such an approach seem silly. On the otherhand, it has been 5 months and maybe it is time to do things quite differently so bad habits are not regained.
Durig this sexual sabbatical, I have purchased three couples massage books and two DVD's on couples massage one G-rated and one X-rated (Sinclair Institute). I am wondering about suggesting that they be part of the path back to intercourse and MR.
Perhaps what our discussion should be about.
Any suggestions or links to similar situations would be appreciated. Thanks.
My LD wife just shrugged it off. For about two months I periodically told her that I would make love to her if she would do something (model some new clothes for me, wear something sexy to bed, massage my back, etc.)to show me that she wanted to make love to me. She refused to do anything. At the end of October, I told her that I needed to be touched. She told me that she doesn't touch me, because of fear that it will lead to sex. I told her that I could cure that. I then said that I was not going to have sex with her for any reason until January of 2010, no matter what she did or how she touched me. (My second 180)
I think that I may have finally gotten her attention and she has asked when we might start being intimate again. I have said that I will not be intimate with her until we have talked about our relationship and what it entails to be in a married sexual relationship.
It will have been 5 months since we have had sex quite soon. If she is serious about renewing our sexual relationship, I am uncertain of how to proceed. Actually, as an HD person, I am for the first time afraid of having sex and being so vulnerable. Part of me wants to tell her that.
I am wondering if we should start slowly by just having foreplay for a week and then move up to "outercourse" or mutual manual stimulation for a second week prior to again trying to have intercourse. One the one hand having been married to her for 38 years makes such an approach seem silly. On the otherhand, it has been 5 months and maybe it is time to do things quite differently so bad habits are not regained.
Durig this sexual sabbatical, I have purchased three couples massage books and two DVD's on couples massage one G-rated and one X-rated (Sinclair Institute). I am wondering about suggesting that they be part of the path back to intercourse and MR.
Perhaps what our discussion should be about.
- Expectations as to frequency (both partners perspectives on fixed nights of the week or how many times per week and sharing of who will initiate)
- ways of saying no without emotional rejection of the other partner (say not tonight because....., but tomorrow)
- techniques/acts (what is acceptable/not acceptable)
- any bad habbits or painful memories that should be avoided.
Any suggestions or links to similar situations would be appreciated. Thanks.