My Life has become shorter and becomes more precious then ever... - 08/17/02 06:34 PM
Over the past few months I have had on and off stomach problems and thought that my discomfort was either from my over indulgence of the hot and spicy foods that I really love or an ulcer that was completely stressed-related for going through the hell that I have gone through over the past year.
Well If only I was to be so lucky...
After a ton of tests and and lastly a biopsy a week ago..I spent yesterday with a oncologist and has diagnosed me with gastric lymphomas. So that means stomach cancer...
The outlook and prognosis “possibilities” are 50/50 response to chemotherapy after surgery. That an average of 12 months of life could be achieved, or even as short as 6 months.
The chances of complete remission are more remote and less then 1-2% for total recovery and this all depends on surgery, chemo and how far it's really progressed after surgery. I am scheduled for surgery next week.
He strongly advised me to make prime directives and make my life plans accordingly right now.
So now I am faced the reality of all this and telling this to my immediate family, my two young children who are 2 and 6 and finally the x-wife from hell. I am only 36 and facing the reality that I could be dead in 12 months or even shorter. No one has any idea of this as I did not want to alarm anyone.
I am overwhelmed with a fury of emotions, anger, sadness, hopelessness and in tears since yesterday and extremely depressed knowing that I am literally “alone” in my shortened life now.
Well If only I was to be so lucky...
After a ton of tests and and lastly a biopsy a week ago..I spent yesterday with a oncologist and has diagnosed me with gastric lymphomas. So that means stomach cancer...
The outlook and prognosis “possibilities” are 50/50 response to chemotherapy after surgery. That an average of 12 months of life could be achieved, or even as short as 6 months.
The chances of complete remission are more remote and less then 1-2% for total recovery and this all depends on surgery, chemo and how far it's really progressed after surgery. I am scheduled for surgery next week.
He strongly advised me to make prime directives and make my life plans accordingly right now.
So now I am faced the reality of all this and telling this to my immediate family, my two young children who are 2 and 6 and finally the x-wife from hell. I am only 36 and facing the reality that I could be dead in 12 months or even shorter. No one has any idea of this as I did not want to alarm anyone.
I am overwhelmed with a fury of emotions, anger, sadness, hopelessness and in tears since yesterday and extremely depressed knowing that I am literally “alone” in my shortened life now.
quote:-Lost Dutchman
PLEASE I ask for all and everyone's prayers in explaining this to my family tomorrow. I have no contact order with my X, so I am preparing a fax to send to her attorney Monday. I would have preferred to meet with her and explain face to face but that is not possible. I guess I can only beg and plead that that she let me see the children as much as possible now, more then ever...under the circumstances...I hope she has a heart somewhere buried in her...