I think we're piecing, but wishing for more! - 09/08/15 11:41 PM
I don't know how to post my original thread, but will look into it.
My WAH has said he wants to rebuild our M. We're spending more time together than we have for at least 2 yrs. now and getting along greatly! Things seem to get progressing in good ways.
SO.... Why am I so anxious to take things faster?! I want a total commitment from H! I want for us to live together again! I can't seem to get past feeling like he isn't placing as much importance on our M as I am!
Lately, he has been very caring and wanting to talk openly about any feelings we have. He has mostly refrained from bringing up the past bad feelings. BUT, he says he wants to do things independently to prove things to himself. (Mostly, build self-esteem I think.) I know this is a positive thing for him. I wish he was working on rebuilding our M with this much gusto though! Maybe, this just touches the 'he doesn't need me' nerve deep down! Could this be a small aha moment?
We have been having a physical relationship & things couldn't be more wonderful. We are also enjoying tender moments, a lot of laughter, and just being together in general. Then I go home to the kids. I think we'll get to the point I want to be at, just struggling with waiting for it. He is also needing to make sure my changes become habits, and needs to trust that.
He says it will take 'baby steps' and I agree, but feel like buying the baby a walker already!
I know I'm probably going to get jumped on for this, but I'm just having an honest rant here! This really stinks!
I texted him tonight thanking him for his loving text this morning and it meant a lot. And, when he is ready to make our M a priority, I will be here.
Too pushy? To direct? That's exactly how I feel, but I'm 2nd guessing myself completely. GROAN!
I don't know if I'm being too inflexible right now as I don't feel like going to town to walk with him or spend time tonight while not feeling like I'm important enough to him. Do I need my head checked?
My WAH has said he wants to rebuild our M. We're spending more time together than we have for at least 2 yrs. now and getting along greatly! Things seem to get progressing in good ways.
SO.... Why am I so anxious to take things faster?! I want a total commitment from H! I want for us to live together again! I can't seem to get past feeling like he isn't placing as much importance on our M as I am!
Lately, he has been very caring and wanting to talk openly about any feelings we have. He has mostly refrained from bringing up the past bad feelings. BUT, he says he wants to do things independently to prove things to himself. (Mostly, build self-esteem I think.) I know this is a positive thing for him. I wish he was working on rebuilding our M with this much gusto though! Maybe, this just touches the 'he doesn't need me' nerve deep down! Could this be a small aha moment?
We have been having a physical relationship & things couldn't be more wonderful. We are also enjoying tender moments, a lot of laughter, and just being together in general. Then I go home to the kids. I think we'll get to the point I want to be at, just struggling with waiting for it. He is also needing to make sure my changes become habits, and needs to trust that.
He says it will take 'baby steps' and I agree, but feel like buying the baby a walker already!
I know I'm probably going to get jumped on for this, but I'm just having an honest rant here! This really stinks!
I texted him tonight thanking him for his loving text this morning and it meant a lot. And, when he is ready to make our M a priority, I will be here.
Too pushy? To direct? That's exactly how I feel, but I'm 2nd guessing myself completely. GROAN!
I don't know if I'm being too inflexible right now as I don't feel like going to town to walk with him or spend time tonight while not feeling like I'm important enough to him. Do I need my head checked?