New Chapter - 07/12/14 09:44 AM
It has been a while since I have posted, the last time I heard from X in fact. Well, I haven't heard from him since (why would I - he got what he needed from me) and I am now unlikely to hear from him again. Our house sale (finally) completed yesterday. He now has what he wanted from the beginning - to leave me, the dog and sell the house. Free from responsibility was also mentioned, but as he has now married the OW I guess he has some responsibilities.
I hope he's happy now.
Nothing about this situation has been good, or made me happy, but I do feel a sense of relief that this is no longer hanging over me, and I finally have some cash in the bank.
I do not have the finances, or ability to get a mortgage, to own my own home again (at present) and that has been a sticking point for me. However I am coming to terms with this, and it gives me more freedom of choice if opportunities arise for me out of this area.
I am also trying to take better care of myself. After a scare with a recent mammogram ( which luckily turned out to be nothing) and the tiredness and cravings I realised I needed to step back from trying to prove I could do everything and do just those things I wanted to do, or really needed to do. More rest, more "me time", and better food choices. I am starting to notice a difference. My body and brain need some time out. Now I have some cash I will be taking a long awaited for holiday - possibly a cruise - with a long time girl friend.
So... the door seems to have closed on my "previous" life and relationship. I now have the impetus to move on with what I have now.
I hope he's happy now.
Nothing about this situation has been good, or made me happy, but I do feel a sense of relief that this is no longer hanging over me, and I finally have some cash in the bank.
I do not have the finances, or ability to get a mortgage, to own my own home again (at present) and that has been a sticking point for me. However I am coming to terms with this, and it gives me more freedom of choice if opportunities arise for me out of this area.
I am also trying to take better care of myself. After a scare with a recent mammogram ( which luckily turned out to be nothing) and the tiredness and cravings I realised I needed to step back from trying to prove I could do everything and do just those things I wanted to do, or really needed to do. More rest, more "me time", and better food choices. I am starting to notice a difference. My body and brain need some time out. Now I have some cash I will be taking a long awaited for holiday - possibly a cruise - with a long time girl friend.
So... the door seems to have closed on my "previous" life and relationship. I now have the impetus to move on with what I have now.