Another Statistic... - 02/03/17 09:34 AM
So like many others on here.. I don't know where to even begin. Other than knowing what I did and didn't do to be at this point in my life. The stories on here ring so true and similar to the one I never thought we would be going through. But I took many things for granted it seems.
Let me start off by going over a little story building with numbers.. We have been together for 14 years.. HS sweethearts essentially M for 10 years.. we were young, but determined. 2 Children and what I thought was many great memories.. Everything seemed to be good up until a few months ago. I was away for a few weeks of military training when the BD happened..Possible EA/PA with OM.. W moved out, Separation agreements have been discussed, lawyer approved and now signed. EA/PA still seems to be happening even though being told it never was or is... Not sure where to even go now, W tells me that she needs space to find herself, that we got M too early and that maybe we were never even compatible and that there was a lot of Toxic things in our relationship from the beginning. She can't see the many years of good times that we had and feels this is the only option. Does not want to talk about R or go see a MC. She has alienated all of the friends and family members who cared for her and I thought she cared for, and has surrounded herself with new found friends and others who have divorced before or are separated or the OM, who continue to feed her full of negative things I feel.. maybe not? ugh..
I'm not sure how detailed I should go into the backstory on here, but I feel that over the last 10 years I have not been the best husband that I should have been. It [censored] that its taken the BD to cause me to really open my eyes and see that my priorities have not been in the correct places. I always thought that i was doing what was best for my family by looking to the future.. but by doing that I was removing myself from the present with work, goals, ambitions, and dreams. All the while not fully allowing my W to expand hers. I never saw it before but I feel that I was very egocentric and self absorbed as I grew in my careers. Which to me all of these things are VERY fixable now.. and should have been before. I can't change the past however. I know what I need to fix about myself to be a better father to my children and a better husband.. if only my W wanted that still..
Story to come.. I try to be completely rounded on both sides of this story as I know there are many things that I could have done better.. but there are also things that she could have communicated better and not expected me to be a mind reader as well.. My story seems similar to jkr2023. Let me know how detailed I should be...
Let me start off by going over a little story building with numbers.. We have been together for 14 years.. HS sweethearts essentially M for 10 years.. we were young, but determined. 2 Children and what I thought was many great memories.. Everything seemed to be good up until a few months ago. I was away for a few weeks of military training when the BD happened..Possible EA/PA with OM.. W moved out, Separation agreements have been discussed, lawyer approved and now signed. EA/PA still seems to be happening even though being told it never was or is... Not sure where to even go now, W tells me that she needs space to find herself, that we got M too early and that maybe we were never even compatible and that there was a lot of Toxic things in our relationship from the beginning. She can't see the many years of good times that we had and feels this is the only option. Does not want to talk about R or go see a MC. She has alienated all of the friends and family members who cared for her and I thought she cared for, and has surrounded herself with new found friends and others who have divorced before or are separated or the OM, who continue to feed her full of negative things I feel.. maybe not? ugh..
I'm not sure how detailed I should go into the backstory on here, but I feel that over the last 10 years I have not been the best husband that I should have been. It [censored] that its taken the BD to cause me to really open my eyes and see that my priorities have not been in the correct places. I always thought that i was doing what was best for my family by looking to the future.. but by doing that I was removing myself from the present with work, goals, ambitions, and dreams. All the while not fully allowing my W to expand hers. I never saw it before but I feel that I was very egocentric and self absorbed as I grew in my careers. Which to me all of these things are VERY fixable now.. and should have been before. I can't change the past however. I know what I need to fix about myself to be a better father to my children and a better husband.. if only my W wanted that still..
Story to come.. I try to be completely rounded on both sides of this story as I know there are many things that I could have done better.. but there are also things that she could have communicated better and not expected me to be a mind reader as well.. My story seems similar to jkr2023. Let me know how detailed I should be...